3 days since i blogged, i think, yeah, feel less stressed now, since most of the stuff have passed. drill promo most likely failed it, i must be hearing stuff xP i can rmb some of the mistakes i made though. like i thought i heard bergret ke-kenan berdiga diga ke-kiri pu sing, then i thought correct mah, so i turn then dunno why wrong -.-" then still got what...1 nco say squad sediya, then suddenly another nco say the 'ya' then i slow reaction lift my leg already -.-"then i just count as execute le lor, then still got 1 more purposely 1...nco open squad us, then march abit then ke-kenan lurus then tio again, arghh..oh well, in my calculations i made 12 mistakes i think? drill promo fail liaox...oh well, now must do well for cd theory and practice. then still got what, oh ya, failed all the tests -.-" sai la...i need somebody that is brave enough to hold a knife at my neck and force me to finish my hmwk or else he/she will kill me-.-" i really need to buckup sia, exams coming so soon la...

oh ya, art damn stupid la. at first it was stupid already, we have a sword and a tank, then if make it proportinate damn diao you mei you...then in the end tianqi gave a dumb suggestion which is to make it into 3 only. then 2 groups do 1. wtf la...can't believe the class agreed, it probably means quite a few people will have nth to do, Zzzz. sai lor...so annoyed during art. some other stuff i won't say^^

then right cca lor, then the safety first badge should be ok la, should pass, then ya u all know drill promo which i died so badly-.-today weds did the sci presentation which i didn't expect to do today, since kee heng has syf. lol i just read through the stuff last night and surprisingly i rmbed most of it, didn't look at the script much, but like the 10+ presentations before i lack confidence xP oh wells. lol then i think we won't fail la, maybe get a B? then alot of crap lor. then what? oh ya, somehow i went to lead some school team to their competition places and gave them stuff xP ers...dunno why suddenly like that. ya then went back to class to see some sci presentation, ya. er, ya. then slack for awhile then went to move tables from LT/music room to their original classes. yala thats all-.-

I don't know why do i feel this way, its the truth, truth that i don't want to see, truth that i don't want to accept, truth that i don't want to hear, truth that i don't want to change to. maybe i'm pushing myself too hard. maybe i'm expecting too much. maybe i'm expecting and trying to push that person too much as well. maybe i should just destroy it. maybe i should just let go. why do i spend so much effort to change and tolerate and endure when everything comes to naught? maybe its just my own character, maybe its just my interference, i hate this way of life, yet i can't bear to face the truth, because i don't want to. Can i afford to?