wow blogged alot recently o.O

still troubled bah. i'm making myself go crazy and i can't stop it. so hard to control myself. maybe its not meant to be controlled in the first place? friendship..trust?understanding?respect?

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heh, just wondering what does it mean by 'i can't'. when somebody says i can't. what does it mean? does it mean that you cannot do something? or maybe you are too lazy, or too tired, or too scared, or just don't want to try. maybe you are too tired to try, too tired to just push on, and refuse to move until there's an easy path to go? or maybe a free and easy path to their destination. i find this evident is most people sia..including me. has anybody actually tried pushing their limits instead of saying ' ican't' in times of crisis? maybe some people just don't want to take the long and gruelling path alone. fine, maybe you can suceed alone, but whats the point. you suceeded but there's nobody to share it with. if you fail there's nobody to take it with you. bleh..just sth i thought of, not directed at anybody xP.

don't know why i keep posting these things nowadays. will post a proper journal sometime soon la!

still have alot of stupid stuff inside my head. its just a decision now? whether i can let go and face the consequences xP.

lols, did i say anything to offend people in the last post? O.O even if we don't win the world, even if we lose, this class will still be the one that left me so many memories that i can take with me for life, and remiscience (sp?). fine i can't really express myself xP, 2e is the best class i can ever have even if we're not the best of the world ok?

hahas, don't feel like its helping xP. anyway..blogging just for the sake of blogging? hehe. last last physics lesson had practical then looked at myself in the mirror. realised i looked so downcast, tired and freaky. did i always look like that ? o.O i'm kinda surprised anybody would get close to me haha. i rmb last time go all the way to city hall to take picture for the HSA thing( did i say that i brought on fri but left it at home on mon? damn stupid la...). lol then see my picture, then must take off glasses mah. then i look like one of the mentally 'different' serial killer (aka bian tai sha ren kuang in chinese) that got caught and taking the classic 'photo' haha. all i need was a signboard with my number on it and i can go pai movie liao xP. aiyo..why i look so freaking tired? eyebags like so huge O_o. cut hair liao look even more..ragged? hahas, need a break from this life can. i guess i kinda adapted already, but still...dunno how to say? i'm getting used to my 'suffering' bah, which is not good in my opinion, hahas.

something i discovered: i'm super sensitive-.- hais. dunno why i keep thinking so much. dunno want i keep wanting to find a reason for everything. dunno why must make myself even more confused and suffering-.-. fan leh...and hor, can anybody think of a solution for me? collect money for class chalet, then those people never go for class chalet then also must make them pay. if don't right, people who go for chalet would have to pay around $30 each?(judging from the costs of this chalet.) lols, then even if the money left at the end of year would be redistributed to everybody, its sort of like..very little? cos we like only collect when necessary. at first thought very good liao lor, got $400+ in class fund, thought rest of the year only need make 1 more collection, then dunno why 1 chalet then jiu hua kuang liao. aiyoyoyoyo, hate collecting money from ppl sia..actually i hate extorting money from people. i feel even more guilty when they WILLINGLY give it..aiyoooooooooooooooooo lol. er..anybody who i reading this right now don't take it to heart hor o.O i know my worries like abit unfounded for? cos it was like this from the start...but wouldn't it be better if there was a better solution? other than + - x / the money needed to pay -.-. i think too much. kinda rash today? bleh shld be just got frustrated, normally i just leave them be...

oh well, thats all xP. nth much to blog now bah, oh yeah there is sth very impt...and i will know it tomorrow. i guess fate really likes to make a fool of me, heh?

today went for CIP. was quite sian la, and all the freaking jumping insects then were around the beach was so scary, give me goosebumps-.-. just imagine a bunch of those crawling all over you then drowning you O_o. then nth interesting happened lor, such a small beach 3 classes go clean sia. in the end most of the time was spent slacking away. then somehow time seemed to pass really fast? feeling quite emo and sian now. yeah then just over le lor, then tml full u drill with mam and squadmates.

don't know why i am feeling this way. i don't have a reason to strive and fight anymore, what now?studies..important as money? feel so sian now, whats the point of life? i kinda envy 2d and 2f. honestly, they alot more united? haha at least the girls are and the boys most of the time are la. so they are quite united lor. like during camp, 2d and 2f sang all the time? i'm not saying singing = united. its just that its just a warm feeling when a whole class sing together? 2d after camp really showed how bonded they are after school, you know playing together and the hey blangja cheer(dunno how to spell xP) that cheer dunno why i like it alot, saw seniors doing it once lol. 2e at beach cleaning split into alot of parts lor, i counted 7? while other classes were together, at most into 2 parts? just kinda envious bah, its really hard to bring this class together sia, the more we should try and do it. 2e is going soon, only a few months left? why can't we just enjoy ourselves for the last few months. bleh, maybe i'm too pessimistic le bah. i still love 2e though =P.

i wonder if this is a curse? heh...how pitiful and ironic. Is there really karma? i dunno what i did to get all these sia..maybe it was owed in my past life. If anybody believes in palmistry right, the criss crosses means disaster? i have alot alot alot of criss crosses xP. guess that means my problems won't be ending anytime soon? hehe, problems jiu problems lor. i just wonder why some people's fate are like this, why some are like that, or is fate in the hands of man? I shall stop being so pessimistic and thinking so much. it is bad for my mental health. i still feel so empty inside though..

hahas, camp was very fun can! xD

ok lets start off, went to safra seal sports? then did some cheering and shouting and get highing^^ in the multi purpose hall. we were in section b group 10. ya that first was water games. at first i kinda sian la, don't feel like swimming at all, but in the end swam ok =X. ok considering i couldn't see where i'm going la =P then first station was to squeeze water from our hair into the bucket, then i like no water coming out of my hair =X all the water girls squeeze 1 haha. in the end got last though, but nvm! its only the first station. 2nd station was the dragon boat thingy, where sit on floats and paddle. we paddle very fast ok! turn abit unco-ordinated la, thats why we got second, but not bad liao. then was the caterpillar walk? walk walk walk until the strap fall off lol xP. but then just continue walking lor. then was supposed to put people up the orange float. then quite hard lor, must balance all the sides? people fell down 3 times, 2 times by accident 1 time deliberately 1 =P i just realise how heavy some people in our class are sia(hehe psps). didn't win though, but then at least we worked together and as a class ^^. the last part damn fun, just oveturn the float then everybody fall off liao MUAHAHAHA. oh ya, we got 9 ppl up on board. after that went to take a quick shower then change, then ate lunch. lunch sian sian 1 la, not much talking done, then felt abit emo bah.

after that was the amazing race, we went off really late lor, like 2nd last?lol. amazing race quite fun, but need more interesting questions sia, i haven't read finish the question somebody will say out the ans liao lol. i just wished we could have jogged together as a class sia, i know some people will get tired from all the running lor, but then run back to safra to end liao also dun want endure to the end, dotz. qin yan kan dao 2f de go into safra about 1 or 2 mins be4 us?lol. oh well, we came in 4th anyway, good job guys! oh ya, the other 2e group got first? g double o d j o b goodjob! xDhaha i heard nicholas was really enthu there, guess he's the sort of person to be serious in whatever he wants to do, and heck care about what he doesn't want to? haha. then after resting and playing truth or dare for awhile go to trekking.

trekking was ok? just climb up the steps lol, i thought gonna have activites up on top sia. mt faber view quite nice la, shouted into the distance with my friends. shouted alot of things sia, in the end wanted to shout 'fuck you' but only wenzhong dare really go shout out loud lol. guess i felt emo then too >_> but shouting didn't make me feel better though, felt like roaring to the whole world sia. after that went down again, then the path quite dangerous to walk? bleh, have a horrible sense of balancexP. after that went for dinner, where i felt considerably better once i remembered aaron's dare!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!*lightning strikes* MUAHAHAHAHA! haha, then just knew that both aaron and kathy have dares, perfect can! then we very nice liao lor, from hugging and kissing to just to just doing sth to her hair =P. haha, damn funny la they two, damn aaron kept dragging! want to tickle him until he cry =P last time west malaysia trip also do that, ass -.-". haha, then we were like trying to force aaron on kathy =X sounds wrong?it is!xD. damn funny la they two. then we go into ballroom for mass dance still trying to get aaron to do his dare and kathy to allow aaron to do his dare xD. ok lets go to dance first. the dance super funny, then like we all very high haha. very funny la the dance. then had prize presentation, nobelle and kendrick got the 2 outstanding individuals, and they must come in a pair! really appreciate them for what they did for the class so far bah, this class is damn hard to lead and unite xP. but nth is impossible as long as people believe.

went back to school liao, then ALMOST got aaron to do his dare, haha, i kinda pity kathy sia, xP. in the end failed sia, kathy was on the ground then aaron still didn't get to do his dare, aiya wasted!lol. quite tiring, then i slept on the tables since i didn't bring sleeping bag, the floor is super cold1 lor-.-(itc nightmare...)lols, then wenzhong got chased by wangzhe off his sleeping bag then he come sleep with me. my king size bed!!xP.

next morning wake up scare me lor what morning run-.- felt weird camping in school then assembling at track like a normal school day. then ate, then just slacked for awhile. arghh dunno why la, keep feeling so emo? after that went for rod practice, only a few people went though-.- haiz, how how how? need to present dance soon. after that reach home liao, then slacked at home for awhile. then saw the missed calls. then yeah went to play with them( i dunno who there at that time). lols then i called bingle first, then found out no guys were going, then too bad i have to go anyway. cos last time they all play i never go mah, then i say next time i will go then too bad lor, i must go liao xD. after walking 1 big round, finally reached the court. then me kathy 1 team, jesslyn yulu jiayi another 1. lols then just play, i keep running around lor-.- then after playing more, started raining, then just sit down and chatted until 5? then finally go home. haha really enjoyed it, talking and stuff.

i realised i'm the only person who put so much detail sia-.- hahas.

super tired nowadays. 2e getting bonded bah i guess. haha i dunno what i so negative about, we improved alot since day 1 didn't we? strong bonds were forged between all of us isn't it? but then there's still alot of room for improvement, from having alot of trouble and unhappiness we are beginning to enjoy each other's company more and more. must continue and strive! lets enjoy ourselves for the rest of the year can? put aside everything bah, but i must teach myself to do that first >_> hais, i dunno why lar, so many mixed feelings. why? there's no need for all of these you know? isn't it better to get rid of suffering than to get used to it? *sigh* whatever la, plain fedup. i don't get why i can still be so tolerant-.-. arghh whatever! i'm not in a position to decide anyway.

2e may not be the best class, but it is the class that left me with the most unforgettable memories and experiences^^. 2e!

lols, was thinking of dragging this post to be together with the camp's one, but decided to be nice and post instead =P.

today had a leadership workshop? we had a coach called barry, yeah he enjoyed our class xP. talked bout alot of leadership qualities, but leadership is mainly bout INFLUENCE. i learnt that influence wasn't just a good thing though, like pressurizing you to do sth-.-. guess i gained a new insight then. shared with us alot of stories, like how his dad passed away. yeah and alot of people went to his funeral, cos of influence, he made a difference in other people's life. sounds like sth i would like to do, haha. its interesting to become a social worker, or maybe doing some volunteer work to help those in need, but i need to earn money first >_>. suck la this society, all so money minded-.- too bad i just know i will need the money. i dunno how much i shall earn until i stop, maybe 100k?200k? 200k shld be enuff to last awhile bah, but dunno about family >_>. okok back to topic. he also told us a story of how some 8 year old boy who isn't that perfect collected $37,000 us to help victims of bombing. really warms the heart? why can't the world be like that? lols, he dam capable sia..37k, i feel dam zi bei now >_<. the workshop very good lor, at least it was enjoyable =P. reminds of a story i read..

A young boy was walking along the beach when he saw a starfish lying on the beach. he picked up the starfish and threw it back into the sea. an old man saw what the boy did and went to ask him what was he doing. old man 'boy, what are you doing?' the boy replied, 'i'm saving this starfish.' the old man chuckled and said ' but there are so many starfishes scattered upon the beach, how are you going to save them all?'. the boy smiled and said 'well, i made a difference to that 1'.

thats roughly it la, typed from memory de xP. haha, found it..so obvious yet so far?

afterwards went for cip. somehow we ended up at same place with 2L? and go up le still go and clean same place-.-". then cannot go in liao mah, so while awaiting further instructions, we decided to be lame and sang the national anthem xP. cos got 1 flag there mah, then kee heng phone got national anthem, then we sing xD. super lame la. oh ya, the uncle was kinda pissed off sia, cos maybe abit noisy bah. then in the end me and bingle went around to pick up rubbish-.- we pick up only around 1 tree lor, then found alot of interesting stuff. like hundreds of instant cement(i'm not joking, hundreds can..). we picked until half the plastic bag full liao, and its only around 1 tree. we were talking about a murder has occured there xP. found alot of weird weird stuff, like human bone!! no la dun think its human, but the bone huge 1 can...then found 6 batteries, 5 lighters, 1 razor, 2 spoons and alot of weird weird stuff. mr wong said that those people sniff glue to help them run away from their problems. i think its kinda stupid sia..run can run for how long? oh well maybe i not in the position to talk bah, since my life is still ok now. but then why spend money on hundreds of capsules of instant cement..o.O dun get it sia. then they all dunno say what thing make somebody cry lor. i never she was scared of that kind of stuff sia..oh well now i know =X then went to jec to eat with half the class. then afterwards they said they wanna go play captain's ball, then i like sian sian then just go lor. but in the end nv go, cos aaron nv go, then wangzhe and yulu go play ball? then no more ball, then wasn't feeling too well bah, abit light headed. like you know when u lose too much blood?

*people with creative imagination are not advised to read this part, continue at your own risk*
you know hor, the flat de corridor is like those places where you shoot ghost movies? lol like 1 dark night, you walking past the corridor, then suddenly a door open and makes this squeaky noise with the hinges. then you quicken your steps. then you get the feeling that somebody is looking at you from behind. you turn behind and see nobody, then suddenly you feel somebody breathing on you. you turn back and see...nothing! you continue walking chiding yourself for your own imagination. then suddenly you see a shadow on the floor, a shadow of a floating...AHHH! ok i'm bored.

i realised i get easily pissed off by people who give me ap. i really hate that sia, they think they what? can anyhow give ppl ap? bu shuang my fault ar? ap for what? grr... not really in the right state of mind these few days, i need to get a grip on reality sia..

oh ya, sorry for not going xP will go next time de!

lols, today was the beginning of our E n C week, which means totally no hmwk and the only week which i can rest properly=X. today i was in sports climbing, which basicly u had to climb a wall. then ya, i paired up with wangzhe, then i don't dare go sia-.-. in the end right, i manage to complete 2, but didn't dare to complete the others lol. i realised i have acrophobia sia..(fear of heights, isit correct?). cos like i go up halfway liao i will feel very weak, like you know after a few hundred pushup you get that weak and sickling feeling in your chest and abdomen area? thats how i felt up there, then arms also no strength push myself up le, then also not much place to step sia..keep slipping off the steps. shit, now i know another weakness of mine lol. wangzhe climbed the wall which had a 90 degree curve lol, somehow he managed to do it after 8 tries haha. i also got try 1 time ok, but of course failed =X. ah well..must train!!!

after that went for maths test, still ok lar, i guess i'm just good at confusing myself-.- hope can get good marks lor.

3 teachers so far asked me why i look so gloomy? haha do i really look so gloomy? guess just tired bah, but then tired still can move on ^^. i still don't understand you, what exactly do you want? i am already very 'noble', i was never like this in the past. just what exactly is going on? maybe my approach is wrong, but then please stay strong till i know what to do.

arghh, just argued with my mum. wtf lor, she damn unreasonable can, always want things to go her way. Cannot spare a thought for what i want isit? I don't see why she even ask for my opinion lor, like 'you want to eat porridge or buy food from outside'. i say buy food from outside since i don't like porridge. then after arguing with her later, she says that i cannot eat porridge always must eat from outside. pai seh directly translated from chinese. then its like..you asked which one i wanted to eat first? if you only want the answer that you want right, don't bother asking me. Its just a waste of your time and mine, because chances are the answer i am going to give you isn't the one that you want. She like a freaking child can, so old already still like that, damn wilful. She like dong bu dong jiu threathen to call my dad back from work JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DO STH SHE WANTS. its like damn guo fen can, childish until like shit lor, as if i will give in to a child who is just crying there until she gets what she wants. damn piss off with her lor, no respect for other people's thoughts and opinions. oh ya she doesn't have her own opinion, she probably trusts everybody else in the world except me. like somebody say i did sth wrong she will believe one lor. In a room when sth bad happens, it just freaking has to be me that did sth wrong. Even when proven its not me i still get 'suspended'. fuck lor. hypocrite, don't bother asking for my opinion if you just want one answer. i don't get why some people don't understand the meaning of consequences. i'm glad some people actually think about other people's feelings and such, but then they don't think about the consequences of their actions, just put yourself in the shoes of other people to see how they feel. There's no need for foresight or whatever 'chim' stuff lor. its plain common sense can. people can do the same for you, why can't you do the same for others?

haiz, thanks for reading my rant, cya

today went for speech day(itself) after alot of rehearsals. they shld appreciate us can, we do alot of sai kang lor xP. but i think the scs do more sai kang than us, like pulling the curtain lol. i wonder where the wind come from o.O i also got go pull curtain then the curtain like...quite hard to pull. i also realised how much equipment and wires and cables PA had.. o.O. I also realised how heavy choir's tiers(sp?) are and how painful it was to get hit by 1. I also realised how heavy most of the stuff was except the chairs o.o. i also realised how strong the winds are in rv, the door will just suddenly close by itself -.-" then make alot of noise.( its the wind lar, what you thinking)(ITS JUST THE WIND!!!). i also realised that..ok stop realising le.

actual day itself. arrived at 8.05 in school, then abandon yicheng xP. dunno why wake up whole body cramp like hell sia. then i also dunno why we were told to fall in at 8.30. why so early? o.O then went to take away the chairs that we were too sian to move away yesterday haha. then yeah slacked alot, dam sian la. it took very very long before the GOH arrived, like at 10 o'clock? then have to move 2 tables, 1 very heavy 1 and 1 not so heavy 1. made abit of noise carrying the heavy 1, yala pai seh. lols then the 2nd table right very long 1, like your canteen table. then senior yesterday dam funny lor. cos 1 person must at the back carrying it down the stairs mah, then he stuck at the back cannot get out. then he crawl out from underneath the table LOL. haha like what leh. ok back to speech day xP. I actually kinda pity the audience, the speech and prize presentation together lasted 1 and a half hours? o.O then while they were seated there, not allowed to move too much or make too much noise not to say play, we were sitting behind the stage playing ^^. play truth or dare, basketball and alot of other games. i seriously will die if i'm in the audience sia, i cannot sit still like that for so long. but i have discipline in np ok =P. yeah then i think went quite well la. not too much noise made and also made it on time.

after that got alot of food, i want to eat it now!!!! just now dunno why i so full. i want to eat!!!!!T_T haiz, then stay back awhile to do dance. then went home have a headache, most likely due to me hitting my head against the ceiling-.-. ok la thats all =P update more next time. oh ya, i have 1 more thing to realise, i realise why ncc don't want do liao lol.

hello, updating again.

Sunday went to wenzhong's house. was supposed to be at 2pm but was abit late lol. Then for the first time i didn't get lost going to wenzhong's house sia xP. then wenzhong played maple first cos yujie and wangzhe not there yet, so i wrote scene 2 first. then soon yujie come liao, then i played o2jam for awhile xP. wenzhong should change his keyboard lor, his keyboard not suited for o2jam 1, can only press 6 keys at once, press more than that cannot le, then i keep missing in o2jam-.-". then wangzhe overshot by very very very long, then was waiting for him all the way. yeah he quite piss la, shan't elaborate=P. then soon started, then our play quite gao xiao, and very lame xP. Aaron and bingle got punished for not coming, MUAHAHAHAHA. xD yala..i very tired now so won't talk too much >_>. then starting slacking after finished up on scene 1 and scene 2 and props. then wenzhong's mum damn nice can. me yujie and wangzhe stayed for dinner at wenzhong's house, then wenzhong's mum cooked korean bbq for us to eat, and korean hot soup? or steamboat bah xP. super niceeeeeeeeeee. but i think i eat too much le, later still have dessert sia. then i freaking full. finished up on scene 3 and 4, but still need brushing up. then went home liao, reached home at 10+, with barely any hmwk done, die die die -_- *haiz*

recently quite pissed off la..because of alot and alot of things. 1 of them was the fact that i failed my promotion, so i'm still a private now. i'm quite surprised you know, i didn't expect to fail my promotion sia...maybe my drill promo really do too badly le, anything also cannot pull up Zzz. then just failed it. Zzz sad lar. muster parade won't have anything to take, haiz. very sad!! how can i fail my very first promotion? sheesh. I must not commit the same mistakes ever again.

i dunno whats going on with my life sia, how it became so messed up, how did my life became like this again? i thought that stuff would be fine in secondary school, but i ended up having even more problems than usual. is something messing around with me? why does things always go the opposite of what i wanted it to be. why is there so much unnecessary hurt? why is there so much unnecessary guilt? for now, i just want 1 problem to be solved, if it is solved, i'll be happy already. heh.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! ok i shall relax...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD ok la, this is my 100th post liao, lol. and i managed to get such a nice date to post my 100th post,. 7/7/07 lol ^^.

As courtesy of the 100th post, this shall be my most emo-est post yet xD ( i can see bingle getting ready to type something ). i'm not really in an emo mood right now so its not gonna be that emo.

lets talk bout rv first bah...i don't really like rv? rv is full of hypocrites, backstabbers, untrustworthy, disloyal, and no doubt intelligent people who use their intelligence for bad stuff. I can hardly find anybody that i can trust, though i actually know a few xP. do i regret coming to rv? i don't know...somebody used to be a great pillar of support for me, i could always depend on _______ and so could _______. but then thats the past, i feel like we've become strangers now. I don't want to be strangers with you. I missed the past times where there were none of this, but gradually the pillar became my source of frustration worry and anger. I don't want all of this, you understand? but then despite all that, there are still friends i can trust and of course rvnp^^. i am quite dissapointed in rv sia. i've heard so many good things about this school, about how it is a 'ming xiao'. now if i ever heard anybody saying its good because its a ming xiao he/she is so gonna die. The people here are no doubt smart, and even though i have learnt much in rv even in the seemingly never ending workload, and stress. The people here aren't that good morally. people has just been so selfish lately, only caring about themselves. why can't people just spare a thought for others, or even put themselves in other people's shoes just to see how they would feel. Everybody is equally stressed, everybody is equally pissed, i guess thats one thing 2eians do share in common, we suffer together. but it doesn't seem to have its own desired effects. haiz, what happened to friendship and trust? My primary school wasn't that good academically, but i learnt alot and had alot of fun there. I never asked for a reason to be nice. I never asked for a reason to trust. because everybody around me was just as nice as me. My friends would always be there for me when i needed them, and so would i when they needed me. We stayed together through thick and thin, even if there were clashes we still remained best of friends^^. this is called you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang. So here i thank you all of my friends^^. I wonder if this is the purpose of rv, to develop us into this sort of...scum. Individualist? they have no idea how much they piss people off for being so stubborn, and have the lowest amount of empathy ever. selfishness...i would hate to see the world come into this state. sorry under the influence of mr wong's lessons xP.

this class..i have nothing much to say about it now bah xP lets just hope we can really become united at the end of the year. I wonder if anybody realises that its already july-.-". our sec 2 squad also got a few problems. its not really that united as well, cos like.can't really say cliques bah. but then dunno why i still love rvnp xP. NP ROCKS!

lols my post not really emo bah. i wonder what will become of this class, np, or even this school. I just hope everything would be fine at the end. I still believe.

surprised? i'm finally updating again xD. ok lets update bout cca yesterday first.

Quite fun la. our sirs and mams came to take us. that must be the worst news possible for all ugs xD. but luckily the sirs and mams that came to take us was our ex-ics and some other nice and funny people. but we weren't slack hor! =P. ok so we first fall in in school - u due to a confusion in attire. then our mam asked us question very unique lor. is like '*question* answer! 5 4 3 2 1, no answer! *another question* 5 4 3 2 1.' dunno why i laughed at that xD. ok la i won't actually laugh out loud de. learnt that latest info is the correct 1 xP. ok so changed to full-u (some slacked lor..but i won't reveal any other information in case ncos read my blog T_T). Then started drilling, started from basics, since our basic not that good la. i admit lor..i feel like we were sec 1s again, but in a good way, cos all of our old ics were here xD. then end of the day actually our drill is can 1 lor.. but our squad is abit lazy xP. we can have solid bangs most of the time bah. squadmates must jiayou! Beat the top! ok lol. oh ya, my left heel dropped out. as in you know the heel, 3/4 of it fall out, then i hentak kaking can hear my heel dropping out then i stamp on it, then drop out again, always got that sound 1. luckily it seems that the heel still can stick..a little xD. so i actually made it. Finally saw sir kee ann, sir allen(sp?) and sir (forget name, psps xD), those are our 3 new sirs. most glad to see sir kee ann. sir eric, sir raymond, mam yini also there. oh ya, i almost fell asleep standing in sediya position xD. lols, np gave me so many good memories sia...even though sometimes it was really tough, i still love it (mushy?lol) must wei rvnp zhen guang! oh ya, i love rvnp! i love my squadmates even more. ( ok i know this is mushy liao) okok next!

Today lesson was normal, i felt like falling asleep sia..yesterday i still slept at 12+ regardless of how tired i was after drill. then yeah lessons were normal lor. then after that went for cip. i thought should be easy 1 lor, but then i know it isn't the case liao. in our group got bernice, jiahui, weisheng nicholas and me. then bernice got some debate stuff then we left school at 3+ xD ( some groups finished at 3+ -.-) in case anybody was wondering, we were supposed to meet at 1.45 and leave by 2.15? dunno xP. then reach liao started giving out, nicholas dun want go give la, then i just give by myself first. quite hard to give la. by the time i gave out just 2 i got rejected 11 times. wth!!! wah piang, faint liao lol. then finally yicheng came to help us since his group finish liao ( yicheng's group all girls group). then finally started really giving out fast. not really fast la, i still got rejected damn lot of times-.- i lost count liao lol. then nicholas also finally decided to help out. damn we were done relatively fast. oh ya our group of 6 split 3 groups go diff places give out. I only met a few kind singaporeans sia..who were already reaching for their wallet when i walked to them xD tyty people! but its free anyway lol. but most of them rejected me after only hearing me say 'excuse me'. -.-" piangz.. then got 1 particular women pretended not to hear me and walked away. wth.. i swear i won't become that kind of singaporean in the future sia! then went to burger king to slack awhile first, then went back to mrt to help the other 2 groups fen. yala then finally finished at 5+ -.- tiredddddddd. we carried our bags all the way can, shoulder pain + leg pain. next time i rather go for 9 hour act xD. reached home at 6+, ok thats all!