omg! my memory seriously sucks sia. was supposed to hand up bio prac for my class today, then i actually forgot bout it -_- I ACTUALLY FORGOT SOMETHING LIKE THAT LEH! I FORGOT LEH! shit la my memory going to the dumps -_-. i was on my way home then i suddenly rmb then i went back school again. but when i went back school too late liao door close -_- argh! i actually forgot about it leh. wth my memory..but i told ms pan already -_-. i used 4 '-_-'s already lols. but seriously! my memory is going from bad to worse!

i realise i must really take my pracs seriously sia, and actually do the pracs during prac lesson -_-. if i don't right, its next to impossible to do them -_- i'm totally struggling with it now argh. and i said i would do hais -_- i think today is a bad dayyyyyyyyy, but i'm already lucky in these kind of days i guess, hais, didn't manage to keep my word.

well, i guess i should update bout my mid years results o.O not very good bah, with that slip shot kind of studying -_- (you call that studying? ok i studied..) gradually lost more and more motivation to study, the last 3 or 4 papers had almost no feeling to study anymore, even if i forced myself to -_- except bio la, i had motivation to study. ok ers..haiya i guess i just say my results, maths B3 only (i got 55/80 for both papers o.O), chem B3, bio B3, phy C5 (hopefully B4 if i can get that 1 mark ^^), ss geog A2, la B4 (heard it was very good with the marker being vida ers..sth?heard we got a few marks though, since they decided to standardise way of marking). oh ya, here's the thing that i'm like SO FREAKING PROUD OF! MY CHINESE PAPER 2 I ACTUALLY GOT B4 FOR IT! AND ITS NOT BORDERLINE B4 TOO! MUAHAHAHAHA! but add in paper 1 i got C5 overall hahas, but not bad already la, my chinese has started from C5 in sec 1 and ending at E8 in sec 4, and now..WOOHOO! add in moderation and count in term 1 marks i should still be C5 hahas. but seriously, i think alot of people are like shocked that i can get this kind of marks for chinese xD. ah well, you can see i deproved for alot of subs with that kind of studying, like chem bio ss maths shld be A1s -_- aiming for phy A1 too ( i know i can do it de ok! not only prcs can get A1 for phy =P) A2 or A1 for la, a1 for ss, b4 for chinese (need to improve for compo ._.) hahas ok high expectations, but provided i have the energy and mental wealth to do so >_>

realised i haven't been feeling alright since..forever, yeah what with my memory being even lousier than normal, but nvm, it'll do for now. ENDURE! can feel my..willpower dieing, hais endure man. well ers, kinda random update today, oh ya, i'm going for shooting com again, everybody pray for me and wish me good luck ok ^^. hope that..i will do well for it. must.

hais don't really know how to start this blog post. what on earth happen to me exactly? suddenly just feel..relaxed. like really alot more relaxed than i should be. ahh what am i saying. past 2 or 3 days, suddenly just dunno..did i give up or something? cos i don't feel like i'm my normal self at all. did i grow too tired without knowing it? confusing, everything is confusing, and i need help figuring out what exactly happened to me. seriously..if it was normally me then..i would not be so heck care attitude one. who can understand how i'm feeling?

what on earth is happening to me sia..have a weird feeling inside of me, do i resent? do i hate? whats that vile feeling inside of me..whats happening to me? i seriously don't feel so well..

my heart is tired, tired of feeling all those emotions, sick of it.

well, as you know mid years exams are finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. though didn't do too well la, argh -_-. totally lost interest in studying after a few days hais.. physics was too much to study! no time sia -_- bio lost interest, ers chem lost even more interest. come of think of it my studying was totally slip shot..hais.

feel kinda guilty for continously snapping at my mum sia. but she's like trying to tao information from me. like she don't believe what i already told her la -_- then always put those kind of weird weird traps in her questions and expect to fall for it unknowingly and prove that i was lying to her. she either thinks that i'm stupid and/or that i'm lying. i would be pretty offended by both -_-. she like totally don't trust what i saying sia. my mum is the only person in this world that is capable of pissing me off in a sec -_- haissssssss. bleh but should be coupled with dunno? stress? frustration? caused me to be quite irritatable, argh dammit.

school has been boring and a waste of time ._. oh damn i seriously sick of using my brain, maybe over used it for all those last minute cramping. yeah i think i seriously overused, now overheated need to cool down xDxD.

hmm, quite a few thing happened after mid years la, but i abit lazy to update of my life, ers forget is friday or tuesday, wilson sms me whether i going practice dance, then i dunno bout it, then i say ers ok, then i waited for them for 1.5 hrs ( i got amazing patience right xD). then when they finally got here then tell me they going kbox -________-. totally tio scam lols, then somehow i just went too and now i owe ppl money -_- hais bad choice good choice? lols dunno. but nvm la quite fun too. then..i seriously don't remember anything during the weekdays, i must have let my brain hibernate in school ._. especially today monday la, totally wasted sia. nothing happened, i basicly sat there throughout, sleep also can't really manage to sleep, argh!

last sat went for dance practice, didn't really do anything, except play bball 3 times in a day, almost sweated to death xP. then went eat, arcade, at arcade i da kai yan jie and kua mu xiang kan at somebody lols. hmm but seriously senses very good o.O

damn this

Ah well, didn't i say i wanted to put quotes inside my blog? o.O guess i won't be doing it all the time then xP. Well, the point of this post is to well..damn i am bored xD. really hope that i will do well for my essays tml. especially chinese. oh well, i hope that i won't be blogging again till mid years is over, very detrimental for studies -_-. just rmbed a quote in one of the pms in somebody's msn, but hor abit -_____- can view if you want, i put small font.

Maths tells us three of the saddest love stories, asypmtotes which can only go close but never meet, perpendicular lines which meet once and never meet again, and parallel lines who never meet at all.

hehe, sth must be wrong with me recently -_-

hello! i'm updating xD well mid years is 2 days later, with chinese paper 1 being a total killer. I have to study by hook or crook study for that or else my chinese prepare to be screwed. I WILL NOT SCREW MY CHINESE! i will not will not will not will not will not xP. MUST NOT! and maths paper is one day later, nightmare, somehow my maths de base really crumbling, from really good at maths in pri school till now barely have any more feeling for math lol xP.

i doubt i will update on anything serious till like..quite a considerable time from now.

and you know marina square is very charged with electricity! cos 30th april went to suntec for ideas in action interview (mind block grrrrrrrrr oh well didn't like to lie anyway -_-). lols then after that my group except jonathan went around marina square cos we didn't want to go home yet. then you know got this kind of directory board with a metal frame? then i accidentally touched the metal frame and got shocked sia -_-. then wilson came to try and he got shocked also, huimin tried the other side of the frame and got shocked also lols. then cos simin dunno why go sit at a bench slightly ahead of us to wait for us while we get shocked xP (she didn't know bout it la), then we about to forget the incident liao and went to find simin, then i saw a pillar coated with metal (i have no idea why) near the bench, then i decided to try and touch it, then i got shocked again -_-. then this time nobody else wanted to try xD

but hor! then you know after that i can keep shocking people, i touch wilson he was like (ouch! wah lau you dian me) then ya i think the charges stayed with me for quite a long time, cos after shocking them alot of times none of them wanted to come close to me xD. damn interesting right? then you know simin and huimin touch the metal railing also get shocked -_-. Then you know whenever i touch somebody i can feel something leave my fingers xD marina square got so many charges lol.

16 this year, 17 next, i wonder if we are still gonna get affected?

I know i'm supposed to be studying now..but hais i seriously still don't feel the pressure -_-. (i'm thinking whether i'm immune to stress now o.O). but nvm, must get my priorities right, study hard now better later, or else will be even harder to catchup than it is now -_-.

my soul..weird.

oh well, hey everybody wish you the best of luck for your mid years k^^ must jiayous! (wee teck, you better jiayous too and stop blogging -_-)
oh well, time to go , bye xD