finally back from malaysia trip, was too tired last night to blog xP so went to sleep first. ok lets get started~

day 1:
i can't really rmb xP. oh ya, took a cab to school, reached at bout 6? then school gate haven't open, then so sleepy lor..then soon gate open liao then my classmates all reach le, then on our way to msia! then whole day just visited some places, learnt more bout malay culture and stuff like that. quite boring la xP. no la actually quite fun lol. then on the bus ride for super long, then kept playing dai di! lol, dunno why i love playing dai di so much, but the bus very bumpy and no table, hard to play. jesslyn my ke xin, she play i always cannot win 1, she say i lose i really lose -_- or else i keep winning de lol. then night liao some people sleeping some people still playing daidi lol. i was sitting there singing, (nobody can hear 1 la, i only sing when i'm in a bad mood) then sang for bout 1 hr+ then they playing daidi, then i dun want sing liao they all asleep-.- diao...then very sian, then finally reach hotel! then i sleeping with bingle, then jesslyn and tan wei's room next to us only. and still got door can open 1 lol. then the door was kept open throughout xP. then played awhile and slacked and did whatever, lol. finished the reflection until i thought(take note, thought-_-) cos mr wong say lights out 11.15 mah, then we continue until like 11.20 liao, thought lights out le, then in the end nobody come check 1 lor. then was slacking and doing whatever till the door bell rang. i ran to the door and i thought i saw mr wong -.-"lol then hurriedly closed the door connecting the 2 rooms and zen li yi xia then go open door. and jiayi and charlene was standing at the door-.- lol, then we go open the door connecting the 2 rooms then damn cute la. jesslyn and tan wei act until very xiang, they closed all the lights and pretend to be asleep in like under 1 minute xD pro acters haha. then very funny lor. then jiayi and charlene ganged bingle, then i stood aside and took a video xD lol then end up playing dai di with bingle, jiayi charlene jesslyn till late night, like 2am? -.-" then finally went sleep. oh ya, while i went to get poker cards from yujie wenzhong they all locked themselves out of the room xD. lol, funny lor then, they can lock themselves out of the room 1. then dunno why somehow wenzhong walked into tx's room and slept there xD. i felt like being evil and leaving him there xD oh well, hehe.

day 2: i actually woke up at 6am, having only round 4 hrs of sleep. actually i didn't sleep at all la, i was just lying there..then next morning wake up sian sian 1 and abit dizzy, no appetite eat anything. then gradually i became sleepy>_> visited petrosains that day. really cool la that place, bigger than science center then got alot of rides and stuff o.O spent alot of time there. then visited some odd odd places and played daidi lol. 2eians invented a new game called dare daidi, the person that loses have to do a dare, haha, i wasn't playing all the way though. then at night we went to watch the fireflies. wasn't as beautiful as i expected though, every single 1 was stationary on the trees and not flying around, aiya so sad...if they flying around confirm super beautiful 1 lor. kinda like christmas trees the lights keep blinking de. then yeah, more daidi and sleeping haha. then went back to hotel room to prepare and do hmwk. then SOMEHOW, our room became the place for a gathering-.- then next door also got alot of people. then very noisy la, cannot do hmwk, then go wangzhe's room do. then somehow, they got locked out of the room again, lol, then they ended up having 5 keys xD. then somehow wenzhong went into tingxiang's room and slept there again lol. then played dai di till nearly 2 am again at tx's room. lol then this night i really slept very soundly. straight away till 6am again without interruption. then idiot bingle tell me go wash up first then i finish le he fell asleep again-.- then i also whatever and go sleep until 7.10 lol. then prepare and packed everything then went down to eat breakfast and go to FRIM. the presenter very good at presenting lol, got alot of stuff there la. then we went to the actual place for a short walk, then saw some really really big fishes( 7 feet+) then just kept walking, then dunno which !@#$% say that leeches will fall off the trees and jump on us, then for the whole hike i was like so dam paranoid that i was staring at the ground in case i was going to step on anything...unwanted. then for the whole trip i only saw 1 leech and 3 giant ants(damn creepy la, its was about 4 cm long can) and the leech kendrick volunteered to let the leech suck his blood lol, kinda cool lol, the leech was steadily getting fatter and fatter ^^. then hopped on for a 5 hr ride back to singapore >_> sang songs while others played daidi, and quite audible too, then asked wangzhe sing with me haha. guess my mood wasn't that good then too. then played normal daidi first, then end up playing dare daidi lolx. lesson learnt is that do not play dare daidi with a bunch of sadists -_-" LUCKILY, i never lose at all lol. we were kinda cruel though. and hor even though i never lose i got tickled by aaron and jiayi-.- wth..why me?!>_> lol then our dares was...weird, sick and sadistic xD haha ok, the very fast 5 hrs past..aiya wished it was longer, totally loved it xD then, they started to talk about really really gross stuff while we were about to go for our dinner-.- wth..lol. then went to jec and bought stuff to eat and ate together with the rest of 2E. he lao shi there also, then dunno why on instinct i bowed to him..................OK NVM THAT WAS STUPID. then finished my food real fast then played with food againm lol but then not really fun cos the circle really big cannot disgust much people, bleh xP.

yep, that was the end of our malaysia trip, IT WAS SUPER SUPER SUPER FUN LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. i took 4 videos and a few pictures, too bad i no bluetooth cable, or else i upload T_T. oh well, go ningqian's blog to see pics, there got alot.^^ TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR CHALET!!!MUAHAHAHA. AARON WEE JIA LE YOU STILL OWE US 1 DARE!!!

lol so long nv update liao >_>. haix, a week has already passed, and now school hols are starting le. aiya won't bother to recap everything that has happenedxP start from last fri, got most stuff to blog about de. last fri was the last day of school, then was also eat with your family day, so was released quite early. Then school was still boring lor, cca had a LEAPS briefing. aka cca points o.O I WANT THE SPF NPCC BADGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, now i have rekindled interest in np xD yeah, just talks about cca points, i wanna get!! lol. then recently dunno why i really super tired sia...after cca while waiting for other people to dismiss, i fell asleep on the bench while other people were talking around me O.O but felt better after that xD. weird, just a few days ago i fell asleep while doing my speech >_> then no time rehearse, cos when i wake up 12+ liao, dotz. okok, so very soon it was 5 liao, then most people was released le. then just wait wait and wait in the van lol. quite alot of people went to tanwei's house. hrmm lets see, me, bingle, wenzhong, nicholas benjamin wangzhe zhaiyang tianqi kendrick kee heng ningqian, jesslyn, jiayi charlene weiting ruoling nobelle selene tan wei yulu. thats all xD tan wei lives all the way at bishan. omg ._. but then reach there quite fast bah. tan wei's house very big lor, 4 stories..omg. but then got some stuff i don't like. like the house quite cramped o.O got alot of room but then build too many things liao, if i got claustrophobia i will die therexD. then staircases i feel like if somebody push me from behind i will fall down and feel alot of pain >_> the staircases are made out of wood, ouch...then i think if i have a headache i won't be able to see the steps, all the steps look the same o.O can't tell the difference. so if you have a headache, dun go to tan wei's house, chances are you gonna fall down the really long staircases^^ also right, tan wei's house doesn't have a backdoor for me to escape T_T hai shall skip that part lol. ya thats bout all. but she also have a yard? very nice lor, very peaceful and calming, got a swing then got alot of plants... then got those stone steps thingy lol. kee heng go try then like we can see from the window xD quite nice la. a few people was playing the piano, they play until very pro. then eat eat eat, then go upstairs to watch movie, too bad the player is not working, oh well lol. then yeah went around tan wei's house, then watched a few flash animations on her com xP *ahem* lol then played dai di ( my favourite!!!) till 10+ lol. kept playing hehe, dunno why i love that game so much haha. then soon went home at 10+ ( i didn't even tell my mum what time i was going to go home, thank god she so nice didn't do anything to me haha.) then another interesting thing is that jesslyn went home with kendrick, me, bingle and zhaiyang lol. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. wtf la, what u all thinking -_- sheesh...

tml will be the west malaysia trip le, somehow i'm not really looking forward to it, haiz. i not looking forward to hols either >_> oh welllllllll~. thats all i guess, not feeling well lately >_>

WAKE UP YOU.

blogging again, 4 days has passed o.O lol i'm getting lazy to post sia, but compared to my classmates its alot better. guess i really do have too much free time xP.

so hrmm i guess nth much happened again? lol. weds hrmm...oh ya, made a swing from the ropes( you know the vertical rope thingy?) and stood on it, and swung on it as well xD at first me and yicheng go only, then aaron wangzhe and kee heng come also. then yicheng became evil then did sth *censored*(i will not allow the evils of yicheng to corrupt my blog, and more importantly not to give some people ideas ^^lll) then thurs was kinda boring as well, oh ya, 2e managed to make mr tan blow. we've made almost every single teacher that taught us blow. *hai* gratz lor 2e, mr tan was like the most tolerant and calm teacher o.O stop being so selfish can? you got low marks? other people got lower, so stop complaining. dotz, dunno why i said that, its not like anybody will listen-.-. anyway fri was np again, somehow i love np xD np really very fun de lor, rod coming soon, dance haven't chorograph xP guess will be going out alot during the june hols... oh ya, during the tamil lesson we ate tamil food. was ermm...not that nice lor. dunno why the food was so sour. ( i like sour food but the food there is fa mei that kind of sour) lol, then curry and the white white thing also sour? didn't look appetizing xP but well guess i shouldn't complain. then NP!! lol, first time at baton drill. at first normal drill, then our ncos taught us baton drill =D. senandiri and sediya position weird weird one lol, then saluting even more weird la...like heil hilter that kind of position like that-.- but then yicheng dream came true xP. ya, then baton drill super tiring la, clamp the baton under the armpit and swing with 1 arm. then dunno why timing so fast o.O. then we marched 3 rounds. with about half to 1 round our ncos gave timing, and hor, our ncos give timing faster than ningqian talking( no offence xP) but then is gu yu 1 la, not possible to catch up with that kind of timing. oh ya, its because no timer so nco be timer..aiya HECK CARE LA!!! why i blog until like sian dotz. oh ya, 1 more thing, we learnt 2 new commands lol. tu ge lang kah masa berjalan tu ge and homad police homad. i think we know how to do those command liao. 1 more thing i'm happy about is that we learnt homad police homad, which is a command that bingle don't know xD (shh, i happy cannot ar?=P) yep, then our arms super tired la, then when no more baton drill go back to normal drill feel dam weird lol. been swinging right arm only then now swing both arms feel abit weird lor. yep thats all.

having quite alot of stuff to do be4 hols, which i can't rmb but we have an english speech on mon xP. hai, rv life so stressful lor. i dunno why i still don't feel burnt out by now. bleh, sec 1 and 2 are supposed to be 'honey moon' years as said by my seniors.

*NOT EMO*

maybe i was wrong about myself after all. maybe i just made myself cold hearted. maybe i was just afraid of losing, maybe its because i can't bear to lose, i can't bear the consequences of losing. heh, what a fool, i'm going to hurt myself seriously sooner or later...

hello, blogging again. well, got back most of my results. can say they are decent, considering the last minute work i put in o.O except chinese though, C6 ._. but then mr ho is probably gonna add marks for me and the rest of the class. i actually feel guilty lor, he wants to help us but then also cannot do much cos we really aren't that good, then put him in a spot sia. nvm, at least i improved from CA1.

english speech coming up soon though, most prob gonna do global warming or some enviromental issue, i'm just questioning my purpose now, if i talk about ozone depletion ask my classmates stop using CFCs meh? -_-lll that would turn a serious topic into a lame 1. poverty also, making the speech to students for them to donate money? o.Ostill got art, must chiong, our tank bout halfway through liao, so er, ok lor, shld be able to finish bah. hols coming soon, that would probably mean npcc, west malaysia trip which i don't really look forward to, class chalet (which i also don't really look forward to, and jiayi booked deluxe rooms?!! wait i don't even know what is that, sounds high-class though o.O) i wonder if they planned anything for class chalet though, i think i will drag somebody go ice skating with me xD i miss that sia, like half a year nv go already -_-(i'm not an ice skating freak, its very fun 1 lor^^ come with me and u will know liao =P) hrmm, hope not like last chalet, keep playing xbox, and hopefully enviroment will be better (wait..did they book back the same chalet?). seems like my june hols quite busy sia.

nth much to blog bout also bah, oh ya today drill promotion(continued) ok lor, didn't make much mistakes for my drill promo, i honestly don't think our drill was that bad, it was still quite ok, considering the standard our ncos set for us. ya thats all lor, i very tired sia..if i take off my glasses can see all the tiredness. still have the art poster thingy to do, better get started, also have to do a zuo wen, which i really don't want to do.

recently very fed up with somebody. at least show me that u give a damn what happens. don't make me start to hate you, which is the last thing i would want to do. if you really don't give a damn, just tell me and i can just end it. save me the trouble of everything. wait, thats exactly the impression you give me, you don't give a damn, and i doubt u notice it. i can use a example here you know. Just because people in africa suffer more, does it mean that we should help people in africa and not those who suffer less, like the beggars on the street? if a person has higher endurance than somebody, does it mean that that person must suffer more pain than the person with lower endurance? If a person has a better temper than somebody, does it mean that other people can provoke him as he has a good temper, rather than a person with horrible temper, cos 1 will flare up and the other won't? You, out of all people. one, last, straw.

hrmm..its the weekend again, quite long since i posted huh? guess i should recap.

mon: woke up at around 5 and quickly washed up and ate breakfast before chionging to mrt station(buses haven't started operating yet, see i'm so hardworking can.) lol then i reached commonwealth at 6? then the first 100 bus is at 6.06 -.- wow i was that early...then reached school at 6.20. wah..when i reach the classroom doors also haven't unlock, and the school is really creepy at that time >_> you should see all the dark and eerie corridors, the 4th floor is even worst than the 3rd floor, all is dark 1 lor..so eerie o.O then since classroom door haven't open i went to change into my full-u first. ya then yicheng, nicholas and raymeo came to change also. then nth much to do liao lor, can only wait fallin( if you didn't know its npcc day that day.) then right...OMG!!!something really stupid happened..lol shan't talk bout it =P ya then npcc day proceeded, but then right like nobody care lor-.- after we finish our stuff liao then teacher immediately come up and talk her own stuff, its like nobody cares bout it sia...ya then immediately went back to class to take our maths test. maths test die liao lar. this time mid years i do like shit lor. everything also so lousy. zzz maths didn't read the question carefully then i skipped the last question cos i was lazy to do and did bonus question. which i conviniently forgot to write down the final answer. ... right? oh well, hope i get method marks, though its not really possible bah. hai overall dissapointed at my performance sia.

Tues was mostly doing art, yeah then nth much bah, no cca that day.then the following days also nth much to do. then today right, we got back 2 exam scores, which i got super lousy can...not gonna tell what it is though. Then right, mr wong damn guo fen can. i was like sitting down thinking of my speech topic. then he was standing like 2 metres away from me? and he said unpleasant stuff about me to yicheng, liuyi and 1 more person i forgot. ITS COMPLETELY WITHIN EARSHOT CAN. i can hear whatever he's saying. he said that i was just staring off into blank space and smiling to myself. blank space is because i'm thinking? though sometimes i do day dream, that's cos whatever that is going on couldn't keep my attention wah.. sorry lor, but i really can't keep my attention so my mind just wandered off. and i smile to myself because i thought of funny/ happy stuff so i smile la, or else what cry meh? then i look up(duh, if u hear somebody talking bout you u would see right?) then he say see he's now looking at me. wth la..he even said that i don't deserve to be in his class. he still says that i think he is marking me. i dare him say he hasn't been lor. he gets angry for every minor thing i do and punish me. like i was just thinking about speech topic and he said such unpleasant stuff in front of me( not technically infront, but its obviously meant for me to hear since he was only like 2 metres away for me la) i hear everything lor..damn guo fen la he. what does he expect from me? i hand up my work( though i was abit forgetful at the start, i haven't forgetten anything by him already right?) and everything. arghh. heck la don't care him liao. some people may think i'm wrong bah, but i'm just saying how i feel. if u want to say such stuff, you can say that directly to my face instead of telling my friends that and WITHIN MY EARSHOT TOO. if u want more examples of his flaring up at every minor thing i do i can list alot. yeah i gained some sort of respect for him cos he protected the class. but he shouldn't think that he is superior to us all. thats exactly what he makes me feel. if anybody didn't know yet i treat people the way they treat me. if you find me treating you badly or whatever, i'm just mirroring what you do. ( got exceptions bah, thats not my only morale, but just leave it here before i go in too deep =P)

hai enough of the unhappy stuff, soon it was np act(yay!) had a briefing about new badge arrangement then soon was recrea! yay! lol was quite fun la captains ball. was losing like 4-2 at the start? then lost a few more though. then i decided to just stand there and block yicheng for the rest of the session and told everybody to go and chiong xD. hey not bad lor, i saved quite alot of balls xP then yinshuain become the catcher(dunno la) then he catch ball very good, then we gained points very fast. then in the end though i thought we won, seargeant jolin said it was a drawo.O oh well lol. draw then draw xP very impressive liao us hehe. then SOMEBODY suggested we go for a run before we got dismissed then ya ran 1 round first lol. dotz.

to be honest...i'm really extremely tired right now. so lei at so many things. i feel like crying, but i can't...i dunno who will catch me when i fall, i dunno if anybody will help me if i break. hai, i seriously dunno if anybody will support me if i really cannot take it anymore. i just know i'm very tired now. its so much easier to let everything out than keeping it in. but i continue to keep it in. for what? for others? for myself? i don't know. i just know that i'm really tired with the way i'm living right now. i don't feel like i'm alive. i feel like i'm DEAD. tired...fan...lei...just so tired...

just to update...geog: arghh! pretty much failed it. i thought revising that much the night before would get me decent marks. but then the paper required almost none of all of that i read-.- most can be answered by common sense lor. arghh. geog paper i did damn badly la. and i promised to get high marks for this exams. then science i thought i will use that to make up for my geog. then i kept revising science though i was abit slacking, ya. then science paper was so fun, damn exciting lol. but then WHY DID I TAKE MY TIME AGAIN?!!i didn't manage to finish my paper, arghh. but i think thats because i went to toliet-_-"hai...science cannot pull me up liao. !@#$% not even a decent score for science. then now last exam maths exam, hopefully i do well for this and hopefully it will pull my overall score up. ARGHH! I HATE THIS, WHY CAN'T I REVISED EARLIER!WHY I SO SLACK!GRRR. hai, in a horrible mood these few days.

i guess thats all for now. oh ya we'll have to wear full-u for our maths testo.O cos that day is npcc day..

i'm so fedup with you, don't make me hate you. For those who think it refers to you it probably doesn't. for those who think it doesn't refers to you it probably does. probably.

bleh..exam week. mon was lang arts and chinese. then lang arts had mind block-.- compre was blur blur 1, hopefully can get a decent grade. then ya cos i spent alot of time on compre i chionged finish my personal recount in less than 20 minutes o.O hopefully decent grade lor. Then chinese is ok also, hopefully can get decent grade also^^ si han spent 20min? lol, my si han die liao >_> then did 2 ques of compre, got bored and went to chang wen suo duan, i actually made it at 80 words o.O(yes exactly, i know alot of people also did that la..)spent bout 25min for that, ya then took my time with compre xP. Then came back home play whole day lol, then next day faster chiong my last minute history revision. bleh..then ya was really rush 1, then today history i wrote about 6 pages(without leave line) aiya history damn laoya, wrote crap for it. zzz.

i was damn pissed by the english results lor. as expected those who got 30 marks for the brochure report score damn high. arghh, now regret peer reflection write until like that, or else can have a A in english. hai dunno why i so pissed about la. just damn angry at it. arghh. didn't expect some people to get so high though. bleh..

exams...fuck it...most annoying thing i ever came across. i feel like exploding right now, i hope the new school has punching bags sia...arghh, aiya suan le, better go back to studying my geog, haven't study finish yet.

JUST SHUT YOUR TRAP GRRRRRRRRR!!!