hehe sudden urge to blog. now i'm getting scared of my physics cos i screwed up in alot of places =/ sad sad huh. rmb to pull me out of my depression if i fail the paper T_T. lalala i must stop slacking sia. or my results will be F9 all the way. seriously, i'm too slack even compared to last year's standards, everybody like piaing so hard can. and i just rmbed for the 1234567th time i still haven't handed in my commonwealth essay HAHAHAHAHA. wah lau, sad thing is i completed it in time, but now i'm horrible late already. same goes for my jian bao, didn't hand it in, going to get scoldeddddddddd. proves how slacky i am hai.

this is old news, but mr wu our bio teacher and form teacher pangsehed us after 2 weeks and quitted and none of us even know why ._.

..don't mind my randomness xD thats how i am. cya then, good luck for tests everybody!

I feel extremely lifeless nowadays. yeah lifeless and bored, somehow i feel i'm really leng mo nowadays. xiang si bing? heh probably, even when nearly 1 month has passed i still miss 2e. not really the class but all the bonds we shared. perhaps i'm just trying to move on? heh trying to explain my behaviour is hard >_>.

i just typed and retyped and deleted for dunno how many times. arghh, why can't i just be truthful and bear whatever consequences there is -_-. shall update quickly and leave^^

on friday had phy and math test. phy test i barely studied for it =X i reached home at like what..8.30pm the night before? cos of training and went to buy new clothes. at the end of the day still no clothes bought, haiyo.. then phy is like..just read through and thats my revision xD. phy paper was so-so, just that not enough time to do >_>. hehe guess its not me to chiong la, i like to do slowly then when left with 10 minutes i will chiong!! math paper was depressing, don't want to talk about it >_>. i hope will have self study session organised soon like last year sia, i want to go lor. but now got i also cannot afford to go la, got cc com training. cc com prelims are drawing very very very near and i'm getting nervous liao. will we make it? its on feb 15 total defence day. its either we come back happy and cheering or sad and depressed, heh to think our months of training depends on that 10 minutes =/. i have faith^^ rvnp jiayous!

went for flag day today, wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, was dreading it like hell yesterday >_>. reached school at 7.30, was late for the meeting sorry! then yeah starting very sian waited very long to get our tins cos 3k mah. i'm getting lazy to blog, so i shall skip some parts xD. so i went with wangzhe nicholas and aaron to tiong bahru. at first i also thought 'wah so far', but in the end worth it la, i finished 2 pages of stickers in less than 2 hrs? but i damn suay lor, i tio chase by the security guard twice -_-, then nicholas wangzhe aaron they all just stand there happily collecting while i have to walk around. but afterwards too nicholas place and donations started coming in really fast lol. i didn't singaporeans were so generous sia, i never ask also will give. i had a really really bad experience with my npcc CIP -_-. and you know got 1 really old auntie, like 50+ 60+? came and donate $2 to me and forgot who and told me she was an rv alumni. lols then i like stun diao, asked her what year de she don't want tell me. haha but she quite generous sia. then also got 1 small girl around 10 years old? no parents with her sia, and she donated as well, though not much. but such a generous heart at such a young age xD. and i really hope no teachers see this part xD. 11am we ended and went to macs. me nicholas and aaron finished 2 pages + of stickers ( there are 50 stickers in each page leh!), while wangzhe crazily finished 3 pages lol. feel very zi hao, around 2 hrs only. then while we in macs right, the macdonald guy donated also, and is donate quite alot to all 4 tins. omg..generous sia, also got another couple donated too. rang wo lin yan xiang kan. then bout 12 ride mrt back to je then just slacked and went back. totally no idea singaporeans were so kind!

don't feel like blogging anything regarding my new class, so cya!

lol, looks like 3k is getting quite enthu, a class outing is already organised xD. honestly i quite happy though. cos got such enthu people in my class (i should be more enthu also.. >_>), and i can finally go ice skating again. hahas, last time i went to ice skate is like over a year ago -_-, missed the last ice skating session due to cca i think. and actually got guys go, lol.

sunday got cca again. went to the what tanglin sth sth emergency preparedness thingy. just slacked there sia, me and yicheng didn't do anything except drink milo, walk around, seeing people play some weird things, and eating free popcorn lol. ok is just sianness lor, had to wear half - u too. but after that went with squadmates for lunch, then girls and guys totally split up..supposed to talk about the dance. but anyway the guys went into the arcade, and i walked in wearing my tee with a really big 'RIVER VALLEY HIGH SCHOOL' on my back and nobody chased me out xD. maybe cos its sunday? the arcade there quite ex lor. daytona is 1.55 per game but is 20 laps. my drifting is really..unstable. sometimes i manage perfect drifts other times i drift all the way into the grass-_- lol but quite fun anyway. got 2 guys whom i dunno joined in as well. damn pro la, got 1st and 2nd for both games we played. i very noob lor, came in last haha. then wilson go to play para para, then i think we played for like 1 hr or sth. i barely played though, though i think i did okay for a first timer haha. then got 1 pro come and play the para para, seriously is pro one la, the ddr machine opposite us also. so maybe i'll try to become as pro as them(ok i starting to get random liao..), shall try para para and ddr the next time i visit an arcade. but obviously if i'm the only person playing and everybody i staring at me i think i'll die of embarrassment first -_-.

i wonder if anybody tried to add me in msn. cos my email address on contact list is wrong xD. ok random la..i should add people..soon lol.

alot of hmwk! i shall go do now. cc com training! must buck up!

blogging again. lol i still dunno what to say bah. still miss 2e, everything still doesn't feel right. everytime i see an 2eian i have a sense of..cheng mo? nah its not the right word..hais i can't explain my actions and mood you know? maybe its because i just know it will never be the same again..or maybe i just want to runaway again. 2e, a class of 33 people, many whom are important to me, whats going on with me?

bleh 2nd week of school and i feel quite tired liao, maybe cos adapting to new class and cc com bah >_>. on a lighter note, my class got alot of nov and dec babies, 14 if i'm not wrong ^^. classes have been ok so far. math isn't too hard cos its still on last year stuff(with a few new methods to solve quads), bio is abit chim but yeah its bio mah >_> chem quite hard to me also, barely managing now. hmm physics still last year stuff, so is ok de la then chinese must work harder, i have this feeling i will fail my chinese AGAIN if i don't work harder like right now, but i'm waiting for 11.30pm where d.gray-man will show ^^. english is manageble and so is SS, but we have 2 teachers teaching SS, guai lan la.

don't feel like blogging on cc com training.

i just wish i know whats wrong with me sia. being such an idiot half of the time and such silence -_-. (you aren't really supposed to understand this part unless you understand me really well =P) what the hell do you want sia, you will be forever weighed down by this unless i can change. but i know my way of thinking is way too serious and i'll end making myself go crazy. *gives a really big sigh*. ok shall end off like this xD. hopefully i'll post bout interesting stuff that happened if there is any =X. and you know our class got a few jan babies also leh, so old.. hehe ok cya ppl.

*depressing post alert!*

i totally no mood for anything now. yesterday went out with tianqi jiayi yingxue hardly spoke at all, sorry bout that! hehe but tianqi suan yingxue damn funny xD. yingxue was talking about pigs then tianqi suddenly tell her go look in mirror then yingxue go scratch tianqi's shirt. ok i abit mean, but that suan was so nice^^. still got alot more funny stuff but lazy type la. and she suan ppl so much also ying de one hehe. jiayi laughed like mad, like we walk until where people always look at her lol.

the thing is i really miss 2e sia. past 3 days walk in from side gate, steer off from my normal route to go to the container blocks. doesn't feel right. walk into class never see the usual people. never hear jiayi's and charlene's daily high pitched laughter and everybody else talking at the top of voices. nobody screaming their heads off to get heard. no more special qi li and xing li by kendrick (people not in 2e won't know how different it feels). heck i even miss the whole class getting into trouble so oftenly (ahem maybe thats not such a good thing..). i still rmb the first time we got punished was back in sec 1. we had to make some lanterns if i'm not wrong for the CNY. but i thinked we lacked 1 or sth(we had to make 2). aiya quite blurry liao the details. but i clearly rmb us staying back to hang up the posters of the 12 zodiac and some chun lian? lol spent a whole afternoon trying to tie them up on the second floor and correct positioning. i was damn noob back then, np haven't teach me how to tie clove hitch or knots like that yet xD. then it was fun, i have no idea why haha, we stayed still bout 5+, (doing free CIP for the school -_-) but still had to write a hui guo shu. from then on we rmbed that teacher (sadly i forgotten the teacher's name =X).

i should move on, but i won't forget..must learn to cherish everything and stop losing them. anybody knows what my msn nick means? if you know you would probably think i hypocrite or sth. i hardly did any of that la.

as of now don't have anything to get 3k together. haiya the ice breaker too short liao =X hopefully will be as bonded if not more than 2e. heh but i won't ever forget!

p.s: on a random note, i feel old being a sec 3..

supposed to update yesterday but couldn't make it xP. i shall be truthful here lol. btw before i forgot HAPPY NEW YEAR!(yes i know its late). last night very nervous can't even sleep la. like 3am+ still rolling around in my bed..dots. next morning woke up went to school, felt weird weird one. cos got juniors come in again and sec 4s all wearing the new uniform. can't really recognise them from other school people now sia..oh ya my class is 3K! abit sad la, wenzhong bingle wangzhe not with me -_-, hehs oh well they next door only lol. i dunno what to say bout this class bah, only 1 day can't say anything yet^^, plus i was feeling sleepy(alright..no reason for my sianness. i mean that my mood was sianness). alvin got the role of chairperson and most probably will be our chairperson for the next 2 years. haven't decided on the rest yet. then played ice breakers and team building games, heh sorry i was so leng chang..and we learnt a new dance o.O. woah..scs have to think of new dance every year, cham =X. form teacher is mr wu, a teacher who walked in with a black and strict face, and when he came in he told us that his colleague told him not to look like that when he walked in lol. dunno why i rmbed that xD. co-form is mr en if i'm not wrong, quite old liao. aiya can't really rmb anything else, so i'll just end here..(psps)i think lessons start tml so see bah. cya then!