updating again. got 1 crazy women go spam my tagboard -_-, dunno whether to delete all her tags or not -_-lll. anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. classes have been driving me crazy la. you know now i sit all the way at the back(which is super cosy..). then i keep falling asleep and not paying attention. arghh..but not totally my fault la, its like i have to strain myself to hear what she says and i'm extremely sorry to say this but..ah well nvm. public blog anybody can come and read -_-. then now i think the lang arts teacher don't like me liao. strangely all of my lang arts teacher don't like me =X. then the chinese teacher also la. i was paying attention can, i thought you made a mistake, i didn't not pay attention. school is crazy, and i'm feeling more stressed what with itc coming up (flag design and performance), getting my term report soon, studies studies and studies (did i mention studies? -_-), not to mention all the really irritating hmwk i have hand up. actually the thing i'm most worried about now is itc and the cc com. itc you know why and cc com is cos i worried if the guys team would get into the finals and whether the girls would do well. guofeng said that we no hope le cos top 10 get into finals only (nearly 200 schools participating mind you =P), weird i thought was top 20 o.O. but i will still remain hopeful bah xP, i seriously want to get into finals sia, though not looking forward to all the extra training xD. so contradicting.. oh well wish the girls' team good luck!

You know nowadays i keep going home early lor, not used leh =/. everytime would stay back for one reason or another to do crap xD, but i actually enjoyed it la.. now 2eians diff class diff timeslots le, sai sai sai. and 3k class outing has been postponed for dunno how long leO.O. don't worry not blaming anybody la, and our class tee has been decided and its PINK colour. lol no comment xD, but i seriously wonder if i will wear man..

just noticed that my blogging style changed again O.O. now become have alot of fullstops le, lol. NYAA not done yet! no idea what to do for it la..anybody has any suggestions. and i love being random. and ANIME! and maybe o2jam xD. ok i shall stop here before i kill any more brain cells^^ nights people!

my heart aches, i don't know what to do anymore.

bleh, cc com is over le, so i guess i shall blog on it.

went to HTA with plenty of time to spare. once we walked in can already feel the tension sia O.O. then yeah around 9 + went into the competition area. 3 months of training just for that 10 minutes man xP. feeling super nervous la, cos in morning last training the hemp got problem then flagstaff super slow. okok then competition started liao, starting tieing the flagstaff as usual, this time the hemp good quality so tied it well^^. in the end we were abit slower than usual but its ok de la. flagstaff was almost perfect except for the peg hitting the brick and the flag got caught by the flagline, appealed for the first one liao. and omfg! for the first time ever in 3 months of training the clove hitch nv slip xD. yay and we loved the hemp so much we brought it back with us xD and the ponchos too ( can kope de la, not stealing). gadget and basha compromised on alot of twine la, even after compromising so much still used 3 penalty twine which minus alot of points. our basha looks nice except one side triangle not up =X. then i think gadget worst la, gave up on alot of things so as to have enough twine. arghh if have more twine we will surely be damn good la. also the mallet broke upon the first whack -_-. own personal opinion still got chance i guess? hope so la. 3 months of training must be worth it de lor.

after that went to chua chu kang, feeling tired. despite my cough i bravely went to at fast food xD. and even wanted to eat ice cream ^^. then walked inside arcade wearing my np tee, then got chased out. next time i dun want to do sth like that liao, super kao bei -_-. then went to play bowling with squadmates, which i got a really really super high score of 30 points xD. they still say want play laser quest la, i totally broke liao xP. then went home with raymeo. TIRED AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! freak man, cc com totally drained me liao -_- especially with the mood everybody's been having.

dunno how to blog bout this leh. still don't feel right. like now that i know more people i'm becoming more withdrawn la. i dunno how to talk anymore, but since when did people need to think how to talk? when a thought passes through my mind, i'm already judging whether i should say it or not. what kind of consequence would it have. the judging is just like a flash and its over. sometimes i choose to rephrase my words or not say anything at all. maybe even my will and feelings? why should i decide whether what i'm feeling is correct or wrong, or how i should think? maybe i'm just too sensitive, or i'm thinking too much again. most probably the latter, or maybe even both. not like i can't speak my mind can. in 2e like suanned each other on a daily basis =X. so why am i controlling myself now? moderation. we do things even if we know the consequence, thats our nature, to strive forward. nothing will happen if you are just scared of the consequences all day right? i need to have better judgement^^ as somebody who once told me should be flexible la. not as in being rash la. i'm really scared of the day when everything just reduces to hellos and goodbyes. now, my effort seems ever so futile. is it enough? has it ever been enough from the start? even if its not, i will never give up man, because its just too precious to lose, no matter what.

arghh, i'm just bottling up too much stuff inside of me man. if you read till here thank you very much xD. i seriously need to fa xie can. if can i will take up some sort of martial arts for the NYAA thingy xD.

i still remember the last day of school where we stood crying and crying and waving goodbye but none of us ever wanting to leave. its sad, but it just proves how much we bonded over the 2 years.

super tiredddddddddd, but must blog xP.

what to say? s3 life getting busier busier, so many tests any presentation in 1 month +++. and i damn weird can..its like now i know more people i'm getting more anti -_-. how much more time will i need..

if i wasn't so excited this would be an emo post le xD. campcraft competition - tommorrow le!!! actually can count down le, about 10 hours more till the competition. hais..3 months of training see tml!! shall keep my hopes up muahahahahaha.

wow my post is so short o.O must be cos of how tired i am. shall update soon enough again, i got to sleep le xD. say jiayous and good luck people!

just update for awhile xP.

thurs.
nth special happened just valentine's day xD. didn't really expect 3k ppl to give sweets, hahas. thank you to all the kind souls who gave out goodies^^. after that had a mini 2e class outing to watch kungfu dunk. at first dun want to watch 1 la..but in the end decided to watch -_-. dunno how long nv step into cinema liaos. the movie..for guys would be only a so-so movie, but for *ahem*huachi*ahem* girls would be a great movie lol. cos of jay chou mah, i think the storyline not very good bah, action is quite good though. wow my update is really brief and my posts are getting sianner and sianner la..hais. don't feel right these days.

fri.
i totally dun rmb what happened during lessons today xD. oh yeah.. i chionged my chinese compo till 2.40pm, where i ate leetheng's cookies and some chocs and went for cc com training lol. got eat like no eat like that la.. cc com timing drop le, cos maybe too long nv train? abit dissapointing bah, but jiayous! cc com next sat!

sat.
went to alvin's house gamble ^^ at first quite excited bah, cos got daidi xD. but then..dunno why bah, play daidi until feel very sian. they play money la, then at first keep losing, but later manage to win back till lose 50cents -_-. me leh! play daidi till sian diao >_> oh yeah, me yuheng yunrong tunren yijun alvin tracy sheryl feei qiuyan yuting were present^^. half of us playing daidi and sianning away while the other half played mahjong, which i haven't really played yet lol. after that sherly qiuyan yuting and tunren left. then me and yuheng really too sian, go play alvin's com xP. but went out to see daidi again after awhile. found out some stuff muahahaha, nth much la xD. then went home at 6+ 7 like that. OH YA! even though i lost 50c part of my goal for daidi came true. I GOT A ROYAL FLUSH MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. though its 10 J Q K A diamond lol. now still left 10 J Q K A clubs hearts and spades, and GET A DRAGONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

you know..on the first post of my blog i said that this blog will be to keep my friends updated on whats going on in my life since all of us will most likely be too busy to chat much. then now i decided i want to use my blog to keep record of my life and thoughts. so i shall.

i can sort of understand the nco's feelings lor. our squad really..dunno what to say bah. juniors come in le but then don't see any change. shit la.

and today while at alvin's house..like yuheng said gan jue guai guai de. it really doesn't feel right does it? hais, what to do now? stressed lor. with everything that is going on, hard to do anything la. sucks la like this..

HOPEFULLY IN THE NEXT FEW POSTS YOU WILL FINALLY SEE ME CHEERING UP AND POSTING NOT - SO - SIAN POSTS AGAIN.

brief update^^ kinda down these few days but i think i get better le. tml is v's day lol. i roughly remember last year saying that i wanted to do something for this year's v day, but end up also dunno what to do, then nv do anything le -_-. haiya..too bad then(as in do something for classmates + squadmates la -_-) and the teachers are bian tais, make us hand up our PIs on v day lol. MAYBE TOMMRROW WILL BE AN INTERESTING DAY HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Tests are depressing sia..oral presentation too. had physics oral today, then didn't think i did really well, cos not really loud, then i was talking very fast, then skipped some details, but i think i made it simpler to understand lol. but feedback is i talking too fast liao, don't understand -_-. my said can see i was super nervous and my finger nails were digging into my flesh. lol thought i calmed down le, oh well. hopefully chem do better la..my script very diff from those who presented before o.O. bleh, mum nagging, just finished my pi so off le, happy v day people.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE! zhu da jia xin xiang shi chen wan shi ru yi! xD

wow..since when did i give greetings hehe.

shall blog since its chinese new year. last 3 days of school was normal and stressful. and benjamin and xunhong is getting more and more crazy dao i want buay tahan them liao -_-. very distracting la!! need to sit beside somebody who studies like mad, or else my grades confirm drop like crap. cos now i sit beside crazy people i totally cannot study xD. monday after school had a small party which is quite fun, cos the cake is used to smear people's face to encourage pimple growth according to tracy xD. quite fun sia, especially when we have so many jan and feb babies ^^. will look forward to nov/dec babies one =X

on tues bio lesson new teacher come in and it was fun for 20 minutes. cos introduction mah then everybody damn funny xD. i stupidly said i got short attention span >_>, then benjamin said he love to distract people lol. then teacher said 'how can you 2 sit together?'. i see how many i can rmb. kennard said he is shuai (again -_-lll), ruimin said he hate scouts(the teacher is from scouts), xunhong said he from GG, tunren said he from netball (lol la both of them) then minni said she liked singing and little children and the teacher called her a pedophile (HAHAHAHA =X kinda mean..lol) then i think most interesting is feei de, feei has dunno how many _______ now xD. shan't elaborate, but i know this will serve as entertaining memory next time (muahahahaha!).

wednesday was cny celebration. got CLDDS performance which i think the thinner girl ate ecstasy or sth, she damn high la can. super funny too. too bad this time not high at all =/ or else will be really enjoyable.

my head is blanked out now (its 1am don't blame me =P). have you ever felt that when blogging you always forget what you want to blog about? haha. ok, happy chinese new year and good nights people!

guess i should blog properly hehe.

cc com training is taking up alot of my time, but yeah its to be expected la, and no regrets too^^. saturday had another cc com training from 8 - 12+ (groanssssssssssss). go to school totally lack of sleep haha. and doing the same thing over and over (and over and over(and over and over(and over and over))) (you get my point xD) makes me super sian. my nco wang lie feels the same way, i seriously think flagstaff ppl most cham one lor, we've been tying the same thing since..dec. rmbed that we were using the 5m poles (same as scouts de i think) and the end result is a really really long flagstaff o.O. anyway~it was really sian la, i swear i will not touch another flag pole/ mamila hemp / rope / twine / spar once cc com is over -_-. I WILL NOT TOUCH CAMPCRAFT AGAIN AS LONG AS I LIVE!!! ok la not that serious, and i doubt i can avoid doing cc again since i still have quite a long time before i become nco -_-.*long sigh* jiayous cc com team!

after that went to eat with raymeo and yicheng and i downed one large coke all by myself HAHAHAHA. thirsty mah randomness xD. saw somebody in jec dunno if its really that person o.O.

sunday i didn't play any games lor, just surfing through blogs over and over again waiting for people to update xD. seriously blogs are better reading material than books la, provided they blog in english! multi tasked throughout the day, from reading to flipping through the science magazines to do physics (i haven't printed it yet..die die) to revising for bio(hais..barely did revise la) to attempting to do maths and physics hmwk (*cough* notice the attempt xD). no idea how my day went so fast sia..

difficult to adapt and make new friends when i still miss (bleh i think you've heard it for dunno how many times liao). will slowly warm up de bah, still worried bout my class.

thats all liao, good night people!

life has been quite tiring recently >_>. so fast feb already la..1 month has passed. been really busy and tired, what with all the tests hmwk oral presentation itc cc com trying to adapt and class matters. yeah long list sia..but i'm the only one anyway, kinda expected this since already sec 3 mah. oh yeah, speaking of class matters i wonder how much of it cleared up yet. i'm guessing some but not all though =/ hope they aren't all talk no action sia..

..after typing all that i feel so sian again -_- wa piang..

today's class outing was cancelled for some reasons which i'm not really clear of. wah lau damn sad can, i like 1 year + nv go ice skate liao. first time wanna go not open. 2nd time got cca cannot go. 3rd time cancel, sad lor T_T.

maths is killing me, i am switching off more oftenly in class nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww. don't understand alpha and beta and benjamin is going crazy and so am i xD. benjamin last lesson was like hyperventilating and punching the walls and singing maria xD. he acting only la, but damn funny can. xunhong also want to go kee siao liao, he keep bankai-ing out of nowhere sia. only me and ruimin managed to maintain our sanity HAHAHAHAHAHAHA xP. i seriously don't like container class room lor. sometimes the aircon is cold until well..i feel cold. other times its really hot. but whether its hot or cold i feel really stuffed inside leh, prefer block B and C de classroom. as a result i'm stoning more and moreeeeeeeeee and moreeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

..did you know ruimin can do 22 pullups? freaking asshole..(don't mind the randomness xP)

nothing really exceptional is happening nowadays, if got anything big happen i shall blog^^ so till next time!