i am super tireddddddddddddd. you know what. i don't feel like doing my physics file at all. actually i would have felt like doing if i actually knew how to do and don't have to kill my brain cells just to figure out one question. so, i think just see if i want to do later. if not try to do tml lor.

damn tiring nowadays, feeling quite tired from a few things that is happening. i think maybe its too much to ask ppl to just forget =X oh well, must see how next act bah. also, kinda worried about hierachy, now that all this stuff is happening i seriously hope the coordi is a good one as to not add to our current burden liao, anyway hope it gets resolve sooner or later o.O

you know now i'm wondering if maybe i should have taken 9 subs and went to 3a 3c and 3e, or maybe tweak the past abit and go into 3L xP. haha, cos right, when i go into 3K i don't really have any close friends in there. then my friend disagree with me say my class better. classes like 3a 3c and 3e are just full of prcs, silence, studies and competitiveness. lol, i think what matters is just the people inside. i think i should start planning what to do tml in class, i think its gonna really take a toll on me if i just keep struggling to stay awake. damn tiring la you know, everyday you sit in a corner and try your best to pay attention and its just so !@#$% that the more you resist sleeping the worst it is for you. in short, attempting to pay attention in class is plain irritating for me, grrr.

oh, saturday went to some antidrug abuse thingy. then went to give out keychains and bookmarks for antidrug abuse campaign. totally crazy, had to give out like dunno, 4000? rough estimate by me la. then imagine a few ppl going around asking ppl if they want the thing, its for antidrug abuse thing, then its free, and in the end after being so polite they even more politely reject you. i realised sth. when you want ppl to take something, don't bother being polite, rawr !@#$% like laura, super hiong haha. ok the thing about don't bother being polite not really true. just that people will just like, shrug you off or sth. and i really really love students from other schools and shopkeepers, cos they were doing flag day or sth, then we donated to them and they took i think a few hundred (oops, =X=X). haha, all the students are like that one ok! really made my day nicer hehe. the shopkeepers also, some offered to let us put on their shop, then if their customer want can take also. nice people ^^. too bad we had dunno how many bags to give out than other groups, had to carry some home in the end. i think i can open stall liao, SELLING KEYCHAINS!!!

then today went to yuhua + rv band concert, though mainly yuhua la. saw a few rvians, like mungyu xuejun and a few others lol. overall concert not bad, quite nice la they play, the alumni who played were very good, though dunno how was it to other ppl. ( i no music background mah). though some parts quite retarded ._. ok, i really should be doing my physics now, so i'm gonna go le, cya!

hello blogging.

so school has just reopened and we had alot of new teachers (not gonna blog bout cca, cos i think my last 10 posts was on cca xP). ss hist, physics and LA all changed, super inconsistency in our teachers, but better than nth ^^.

now start school le, i find myself hecking my studies abit more, cos i don't really bother to do my homework liao. but i think the new teachers are rather interesting o.O but for other subs i starting to find myself purposely don't want to listen liao, cos in the past i want to listen but all my energy go to struggling to stay awake, now just don't wanna bother liao. i think this class is realllllllll bad influence xP. haiya heck all those people man. i'm starting to not like this class le, heh. to think after 6 months i'm still like that, but its progress anyway. its annoying to blog bout this, thinking bout who might read this -_-.

i find it tough to blog like this, kinda defeats the purpose of blogging. chatting to people is far more enjoyable ^^. for now tommorrow is cca, and i'm abit tired le. (screw the not talking bout cca part) heirachy voting, i thought about it, struggled about it, and gave an answer. maybe that wasn't the best answer, but it seemed rather logical at the time. and i followed my heart xP

hopefully i'm not so annoyed tommorrow. LA talked about handling changes, i've got my own views xP. i'm just gonna be who i am exactly lols

lols hello, the tagboard is tugging at my mind to reply it >_>. left it for over 1 month liao i guess xD. hmm ok bah, the YDSP camp was quite interesting, went crazy wanting our robot to work. actually the camp like -_-, you know at the end of the camp was a competition, have to complete a few challenges using your robot. whoever does most well will win. and then like all the groups programmed it exactly to move to this place, do what, then move to another place do what, no sensors at all, except one group. then i realised its not good to do it like that, cos if you position it abit little bit off then the robot will go off for the whole thing, meaning you just screw everything up. so for us, its just a test of luck, if you position it nicely, it'll work, if just a lil bit off, it'll fail. so if you are ever going to program a robot to do stuff, always use sensors, its like our robot is blind deaf and insensitive to touch, it just agar agar know how much to move and what to do. ok la enough of that, so didn't win bah.

shooting competition, good news and bad news, good news is the girls team got into the finals, at 6th position (rather unexpected =X). so thats good, hopefully they'll win a trophy for rvnp ^^ bad news is well, guys team didn't get in, did rather poorly to say. yeah, thats for team, for individual i didn't get in as well. 22nd position, dots, i thought i will be like 10+ position, since the CI said 'aiya, almost there!' cos top 10 go finals mah. somehow i end up in 22nd lols. nvm bah, the CI was kind enough, and i sort of already got over it le. though its quite sad sia. 3 coms and didn't even manage to win anything? gou lan de bah. arghh get over it man, one of the depressing things this hols -_-

This whole hols has been filled with np acts lol. i think i only have a week of free time out of the whole hols (serious..) other than the chalet didn't even manage to meet up with my friends and have fun sia. today was unit bbq but decided to stay at home since its father's day xP, lols and then there's still the matter of math statistics project, physics hmwk which i dun feel like killing my brain cells over (-_-), san guo yan yi, yeah you know all the holiday hmwk lol. i think i'm still trying to recover, 6 months almost up, at least i'm feeling better now ^^. alot of thoughts, but i rather not share it on a public blog lol.

ok now for the reply of tags! (like finally xD)

charlene : hehe yeah, i still love 2e alot alot xD. wished i could stay for longer sia =/and my phys not pro, lols (if anyody got lost about what i'm saying, just check the tagbord xP)

mung yu: lol where got so much lower than me. and i seriously could have done alot better la, no offence to anybody -_-

kaijun: hello kaijun xD

raymeo: yeah relinked liao, and dots..no comment, i can see you tagging beside me xD.

jiayi: hahas you tagged so much sia. hehe, you still owe me 3 chocs ^^, i'll get them from you soon enough xD and i always care alot bout 2e de =X, wished could have spent more time with you all >_> and nco is just a position la, when become an nco the whole cca is almost all in your hands, along with all the other ncos lol. and skin, changed, and updated alot already xP

leetheng: lol bound to feel sian la, with so many things up, and sacrificing reunion time with my classmates >_> haha i still feel sore about missing 2 chalets can -_-

yx: lol, your posts are still harder to understand, i can't read chinese >_<

yulu: lol nco is er, refer to the top ^^ haha my reply to tags is like late like hell, but yeah, still managed to go in the end, even if its for 1 day only lol.

tingxiang: hello! and yes you finally tagged after dunno how long haha xD. lol maybe, but at least cca is more enjoyable than hmwk ^^. go update your blog more also! maybe time to change your blogskin too =P

bingle : lol yeah, its better, cca doesn't take a toll on your sanity, and preserves all your brain cells as it is >_> and (i think i repeated this for at least 10 times liao), bingle! you pang ................ i think you know what i want to say xD.

phew finally thats all, so cya and blog another time ^^

i feel that since the start of this year, i haven't really been myself. is that true?

ok blogging again, though not really much mood for blogging haha.

ok, so i had 1 day of break, 2nd june, then 3rd is normal cca, 4th pk + home front security course, 5th same, 6th normal cca again.

the 2 cca acts were the last activities with the ncos liao. first day we rushed through the whole syllabus and drilled for 5 hrs. didn't really feel tired, i mean rifle drill and slow march is damn fun (at least for me la xD). been waiting to learn slow march since forever hehe. though i think we need to practice more la. first act was mostly about drilling drilling and more drilling, then after that went to je for photohunt again, where the ncos managed to beat our high score !@#$% 436k lol. but we managed to beat them 2 days later after the next act muahahahaha with a score of 445k. i have absolutely no idea how did we do that xD, must have went crazy or sth haha. lol i think 2nd act have more stuff to talk about, at first is just tent pitching and flagstaff, with only i think a few people who knew how to properly pitch a flagstaff xP heh but we improved ok, on our 2nd try ^^. as a whole. after that went to a classroom and finished up the rest of our syllabus for cc and cd. then the ncos talked to us. told us alot of things bah, now's the time to be strong. still hesitant, but i wrote one word on the board, which is jiayous. i wonder how much a jiayou is worth right now, pretty worthless? everybody can just say it sia. but i want you all to know it came from my heart ok, i thought about what i could write, i could write a long speech beating around the bush or be straight to the point. jiayou is just what we need now, i think being ncos will be tougher than being cadets, no matter what move on and believe in us, believe the squad, we can all get through this together. so everybody, lets all jiayous ya ^^.

homefront security and pk course (police knowledge, not player killing =P)
was er, another 9 hrs per day of lectures T_T. talked about homefront security, as in bomb threats, terrorists, biological chemical and explosive weapons. police knowledge is just stuff about the SPF lol? ok la lets skip this part, just know i reach there at 8 in the morning in my full -u and sat there till 5+ then we could go home, to repeat the same thing next day -_-.

7th and 8th was my break day, then 9-13 was my YDSP camp. not really camp la, or else i wouldn't be here. me raymeo weisheng bernice jingyi went, and one thing i can say bout the camp is that the food is super good! like every 2 hrs we get tea break and lunch and tea break xD. lol, i eat unti so fat liao. everytime me and raymeo would get food until it stack until mountain hehe. ok, so thats not the point of the camp xD. the camp is basicly about naval technology, first day talk about acoustic systems, meaning sonar, and got stunned with some stuff like '3 x y z orthogonal uni-axel accelerometer'. lol xP hehe then visited some ships, thats all for day one. then basicly we need to build and program a robot to do some work underwater, though we dunno what yet la. tml will know, then start with all the design, fri competition day. oh ya, we taught the robot how to homad kehadapan today xD. ok will talk more bout that later on ( i bet some ppl are thinking how much is this guy gonna blog? xD)

arghh, sleepy, continue this tml xD.

lol ok i'm finally back to blogging xD. it would be ridiculous to reply my tags on my tagboard now sia ._. so i think i will reply them of my blog later on lol. ok so where did i leave off? oh right the chalet xD

sad to say, the chalet wasn't as fun as last year's one bah, mainly cos not much ppl came and i only came for one day xP. but it was still damn nice to see all of them again and be together with them one more time xD. come chalet liao just keep playing daidi, not up to my normal game lol. then just daidi until bbq, where there is almost no fire, then we took out all the food and started fire again ._. and did i mention 1J was right beside us? lol and their fire was better than ours ._. then late in the night a few of us stayed awake and we were entertained by sick and lame jokes from yujie zhaiyang and kee heng and alot of lame stuff from yujie lol till like 3am+? then alot of ppl asleep liao, then me jiayi tx watched alvin and the chipmunks on the laptop xP. lol thats basicly it for the night sia, alot of them asleep le, but luckily got ppl accompany me until 6am+ where i left for the LMSC course ^^ lol maybe this chalet wasn't as fun as it could be, but the point is that we managed to spend time together again. isn't that what everybody has been wishing for? for all of us to be together again xD (lol, sry to spoil the moment, but it sounds like some lines from a script..). oh ya, BL YOU PANG SEH ME !@#$% wah lau, didnt even get to see you during chalet, say what at night come grr! oh well thats about it for chalet bah.

LMSC

lmsc means leadership and mentoring skills course. lol well i didn't sleep a wink at the chalet (maybe i did sleep for 10 mins or sth o.O), and i went for the course, which is SUICIDE! you know why? cos from 8-5 all we did was sit on a chair and listen to LECTURES. coupled with lack of sleep, i have no idea how i made it pass that 9 hrs -_- of course there were activities but er nth much bah. mainly lectures lectures lectures and more lectures, almost died in there -_- oh ya, you know the lmsc course is held in newtown sec, then somebody (forgot who ._.) told me its near commonwealth mrt, then i went there, to find newtown primary school over there..!!! wah lau, then i had absolutely no idea how to get to newtown sec, and my handphone conveniently decided to die on me (ran out of batt ._. how much luckier can i get?) then i checked the bustop lists at the bustop, and went around asking ppl if they knew where it was, then somehow i managed to get a clue from a nice auntie and she told me that it was near dover mrt. so i rode to dover, obviously being quite late liao lol. then i asked around for directions again (kinda despo i know lol) then some nice souls told that it is behind the singapore poly? don't rmb what place is that la. then i thought it would be a short walk around the school, in the end i walked for what, 20+ mins? before i even saw newtown sec sia, why the hell did the singapore poly have to be that big? ..anyway seems like i wasn't the latest, alot of ppl got lost xDxD. quickly changed and falled in, then moved to hall and attempted to listen to the guy talk *cough*attempted*cough*. hehe ok, i think i blogged more about my journey there than the course itself.

so day 2, its 8-5 again. more interesting today, got there without any prob, then they gave us this personality test, which the DISC test. D for dominant, I for influence, S for steadiness, and C for conscientious? lol forgot the C. i got 8 for D, 10 for I, 7 for S, 7 for C, see my highest one is I, not D, i'm not violent sia xD. lol don't get the wrong idea for what is meant by D,I,S or C. if you want can go search, its not what you would think la, oh ya the test we took wasn't a full one, the full one would take 1hr+ to complete xP. then just more talks , mainly on leadership, effective communications, the like. then some activities then go home, yay! FREEDOM!

lol ok the last part was weird. hmm whats next ar..ooh area games day! area games day went clementi, stone stone stone, then went to setup our station lol. then our squad really very competitive sia.. oh well i guess everybody has a part in it >_> hehe overall it was really enjoyable, and we were like having water war inbetween and everybody got wet^^ and did biliblanja (sry dunno how to spell xP) on the puddles of water and we got really dirty hehe but still fun la. afterwards we went out i think, my memory getting short hehe.

29 lmsc, 30 lmsc, 31st area games day, ah 1st june x trail -_-.
you know i think like more than half of the teams that participated in x trail are from atheletics? and rv dunno why send UG ppl go, dunno how to win them sia -_-. anyway x trail damn tiring and taxing on my stamina and endurance, had to stop several times throughout the whole thing, almost died sia. but i tried to run again after a short while after i stopped, nearly died, felt like vomitting and dizzy and i still tried to run in the end ran wrong route and took the long way, and ended up what, 6th or 7th? i think we around 4th or 5th at first, with the 2 rvnc team behind us, then after we ran wrong they became in front of us. won us by about 1 min or so. but don't really matter la, what matters is i completed the race in one piece xD. hehe along with my partner raymeo la. but couldn't rested a long while before i could manage to eat the bee hoon. even after i slowly ate finish my bee hoon the rvgg team still isn't here yet lol? they took 1 hr 8 mins to complete the whole 5.5km trail xD, rvnp took about 48mins, rvnc 47mins. i think top team about 38mins bah, damn ..wah lau atheletics >_<. hehe but i think it was good effort on everybody's part bah, i run until walk also got difficulty -_-. hehe ok it hink thats all for now, got to segment my posts, or ppl will die reading xD.

still got bout the 2 holiday acts, the pk and homefront security course, then YDSP camp, the .22 revolver com results, and replying of tags, and my random crapping xP

yay finally found a suitable skin and changed my blogskin, after dunno how many years xD. i think the only thing that needs changing now is the tagboard? black and white don't really suit the skin =X. and i think the skin needs some words at the top left hand corner, too empty liao that space xD. other than that i think this skin quite nice le hehe.

ok sorry for not updating, i'll try to post about everything that has happened tml, cos its late now and its too late for blogging cos i'm always procrastinating -_-. recently just cca cca and cca. with 2 days of rest for me so far lol. i think before i know it school gonna reopen again, and i haven't got my phys assignment 8 from junhao, totally hate mastering physics cos i dun get what they want me to do (though i think i will get it if i will take another look at it ._.), and statistics project, i can't contact junhao and xunhong's only coming back to singapore on the 21st, which is 2 days before school reopen. rawr, trouble xP. oh well, i know i'll pull through somehow in the end xD. the only sad thing bout this hols is that didn't get to meet up and have fun with all my 2eians sia. want to organise 1 class outing also hard, like everybody's schedule clash. sad sad. seriously what kind of hols is this sia, feel like complaining, wait thats what i'm doing now, complaining ._. (ps for the randomness =P) hais, not really looking forward to going back to school, since go back to school must struggle to stay awake again. i think i'm gonna heck care and just fall asleep, its better for my mind than just stoning there 24/7 pretending that i am listening or sth -_- stoning for long periods of time is bad for health xP.

ok, going for some YDSP thing tml, i have no idea why i agreed to go but since i agreed to i should go lol. so i guess i'll try to blog bout what happened lately tml bah..hopefully ^^ hehe. ok thats all for now, good night people.