hrmm..its the weekend again, quite long since i posted huh? guess i should recap.

mon: woke up at around 5 and quickly washed up and ate breakfast before chionging to mrt station(buses haven't started operating yet, see i'm so hardworking can.) lol then i reached commonwealth at 6? then the first 100 bus is at 6.06 -.- wow i was that early...then reached school at 6.20. wah..when i reach the classroom doors also haven't unlock, and the school is really creepy at that time >_> you should see all the dark and eerie corridors, the 4th floor is even worst than the 3rd floor, all is dark 1 lor..so eerie o.O then since classroom door haven't open i went to change into my full-u first. ya then yicheng, nicholas and raymeo came to change also. then nth much to do liao lor, can only wait fallin( if you didn't know its npcc day that day.) then right...OMG!!!something really stupid happened..lol shan't talk bout it =P ya then npcc day proceeded, but then right like nobody care lor-.- after we finish our stuff liao then teacher immediately come up and talk her own stuff, its like nobody cares bout it sia...ya then immediately went back to class to take our maths test. maths test die liao lar. this time mid years i do like shit lor. everything also so lousy. zzz maths didn't read the question carefully then i skipped the last question cos i was lazy to do and did bonus question. which i conviniently forgot to write down the final answer. ... right? oh well, hope i get method marks, though its not really possible bah. hai overall dissapointed at my performance sia.

Tues was mostly doing art, yeah then nth much bah, no cca that day.then the following days also nth much to do. then today right, we got back 2 exam scores, which i got super lousy can...not gonna tell what it is though. Then right, mr wong damn guo fen can. i was like sitting down thinking of my speech topic. then he was standing like 2 metres away from me? and he said unpleasant stuff about me to yicheng, liuyi and 1 more person i forgot. ITS COMPLETELY WITHIN EARSHOT CAN. i can hear whatever he's saying. he said that i was just staring off into blank space and smiling to myself. blank space is because i'm thinking? though sometimes i do day dream, that's cos whatever that is going on couldn't keep my attention wah.. sorry lor, but i really can't keep my attention so my mind just wandered off. and i smile to myself because i thought of funny/ happy stuff so i smile la, or else what cry meh? then i look up(duh, if u hear somebody talking bout you u would see right?) then he say see he's now looking at me. wth la..he even said that i don't deserve to be in his class. he still says that i think he is marking me. i dare him say he hasn't been lor. he gets angry for every minor thing i do and punish me. like i was just thinking about speech topic and he said such unpleasant stuff in front of me( not technically infront, but its obviously meant for me to hear since he was only like 2 metres away for me la) i hear everything lor..damn guo fen la he. what does he expect from me? i hand up my work( though i was abit forgetful at the start, i haven't forgetten anything by him already right?) and everything. arghh. heck la don't care him liao. some people may think i'm wrong bah, but i'm just saying how i feel. if u want to say such stuff, you can say that directly to my face instead of telling my friends that and WITHIN MY EARSHOT TOO. if u want more examples of his flaring up at every minor thing i do i can list alot. yeah i gained some sort of respect for him cos he protected the class. but he shouldn't think that he is superior to us all. thats exactly what he makes me feel. if anybody didn't know yet i treat people the way they treat me. if you find me treating you badly or whatever, i'm just mirroring what you do. ( got exceptions bah, thats not my only morale, but just leave it here before i go in too deep =P)

hai enough of the unhappy stuff, soon it was np act(yay!) had a briefing about new badge arrangement then soon was recrea! yay! lol was quite fun la captains ball. was losing like 4-2 at the start? then lost a few more though. then i decided to just stand there and block yicheng for the rest of the session and told everybody to go and chiong xD. hey not bad lor, i saved quite alot of balls xP then yinshuain become the catcher(dunno la) then he catch ball very good, then we gained points very fast. then in the end though i thought we won, seargeant jolin said it was a drawo.O oh well lol. draw then draw xP very impressive liao us hehe. then SOMEBODY suggested we go for a run before we got dismissed then ya ran 1 round first lol. dotz.

to be honest...i'm really extremely tired right now. so lei at so many things. i feel like crying, but i can't...i dunno who will catch me when i fall, i dunno if anybody will help me if i break. hai, i seriously dunno if anybody will support me if i really cannot take it anymore. i just know i'm very tired now. its so much easier to let everything out than keeping it in. but i continue to keep it in. for what? for others? for myself? i don't know. i just know that i'm really tired with the way i'm living right now. i don't feel like i'm alive. i feel like i'm DEAD. tired...fan...lei...just so tired...