today went for CIP. was quite sian la, and all the freaking jumping insects then were around the beach was so scary, give me goosebumps-.-. just imagine a bunch of those crawling all over you then drowning you O_o. then nth interesting happened lor, such a small beach 3 classes go clean sia. in the end most of the time was spent slacking away. then somehow time seemed to pass really fast? feeling quite emo and sian now. yeah then just over le lor, then tml full u drill with mam and squadmates.

don't know why i am feeling this way. i don't have a reason to strive and fight anymore, what now?studies..important as money? feel so sian now, whats the point of life? i kinda envy 2d and 2f. honestly, they alot more united? haha at least the girls are and the boys most of the time are la. so they are quite united lor. like during camp, 2d and 2f sang all the time? i'm not saying singing = united. its just that its just a warm feeling when a whole class sing together? 2d after camp really showed how bonded they are after school, you know playing together and the hey blangja cheer(dunno how to spell xP) that cheer dunno why i like it alot, saw seniors doing it once lol. 2e at beach cleaning split into alot of parts lor, i counted 7? while other classes were together, at most into 2 parts? just kinda envious bah, its really hard to bring this class together sia, the more we should try and do it. 2e is going soon, only a few months left? why can't we just enjoy ourselves for the last few months. bleh, maybe i'm too pessimistic le bah. i still love 2e though =P.

i wonder if this is a curse? heh...how pitiful and ironic. Is there really karma? i dunno what i did to get all these sia..maybe it was owed in my past life. If anybody believes in palmistry right, the criss crosses means disaster? i have alot alot alot of criss crosses xP. guess that means my problems won't be ending anytime soon? hehe, problems jiu problems lor. i just wonder why some people's fate are like this, why some are like that, or is fate in the hands of man? I shall stop being so pessimistic and thinking so much. it is bad for my mental health. i still feel so empty inside though..