wow blogged alot recently o.O

still troubled bah. i'm making myself go crazy and i can't stop it. so hard to control myself. maybe its not meant to be controlled in the first place? friendship..trust?understanding?respect?

*SKIP THIS PART. TOTAL CRAP*

heh, just wondering what does it mean by 'i can't'. when somebody says i can't. what does it mean? does it mean that you cannot do something? or maybe you are too lazy, or too tired, or too scared, or just don't want to try. maybe you are too tired to try, too tired to just push on, and refuse to move until there's an easy path to go? or maybe a free and easy path to their destination. i find this evident is most people sia..including me. has anybody actually tried pushing their limits instead of saying ' ican't' in times of crisis? maybe some people just don't want to take the long and gruelling path alone. fine, maybe you can suceed alone, but whats the point. you suceeded but there's nobody to share it with. if you fail there's nobody to take it with you. bleh..just sth i thought of, not directed at anybody xP.

don't know why i keep posting these things nowadays. will post a proper journal sometime soon la!

still have alot of stupid stuff inside my head. its just a decision now? whether i can let go and face the consequences xP.