lols, i swear i will value my sleep more from today onwards >_>. i look worse and worse everyday, i swear.

oh well...was super pissed off on friday. i wonder if anybody noticed? sorry for aping anybody that day, or giving a pissed off look. walked around for 20 min during recess and thought about it. i just don't dare to admit it do i? because the risk are too big...if i don't admit it, problems will continue, if i admit it, even bigger problems. i don't know what i am going to doooo grr. because i don't dare to admit it things affect me more than it should. to think about it haven't i been really selfish and hypocritical? i talk about being nice but if you are really nice you won't expect something in return do you? but i do, i expect the same in return as well. I always thought i was right, but am i actually forcing things on other people? am i actually nice to people just because i want people to be nice to me? i look at myself...what have i been doing? and what have they been doing? can i compare? no. thats why i have to do better, alot better than what i am doing now. I promise.

Before i continue with my normal blog post, i am sorry! maybe you don't know the person i'm saying sorry to is you, but then really, sorry!

ah well, lets continue with my blog post.

haven't really updated in awhile? finally changed my blogskin haha. found 1 i actually liked after so long sia. when did i say i will change my blogskin ar? about half a year ago i guess xDDDD. oh well, still seasons themed though, i dunno why but i love this skin so much xP. okok, btw if anybody didn't know, click on the 'new messages' at the bottom for my tagboard.

oh yeah, blogging, i dunno when i last updated, since the stupid blogger headbar blocked the date -.- oh ya, i'm going to reveal sth now, i think quite a few people know le, so i just tell liao o.O.

*drumsroll* I GOT PROMOTED!!! muahahaha. last last last last (still got any last? xP) act we had our muster parade. then i like sian sian, ahh...my squadmates getting promoted!! but then i kan kai liao..private jiu private, still can become staff and go CI mah xP. then suddenly sir raymond said 'PRIVATE TAN WEE TECK' then i like O___________O!!!! yes i swear my eyes were that big xD then i stone there for like 5 secs before falling out. but sir eric stopped me and explain how to fall out(i think he think i dunno how to fall out, thats why lag there >_<). then sir raymond said my name again then i immediately fall out. then i like grinning like a freak xDxD. ok enough facial expressions liao. but afterwards told sirs that my name wasn't listed on the np board, then they said they'll go check with mr oh again. then huimin's rank also takeaway. then after 1 week of gruelling waiting, we both got promoted^^. heng sia..if she nv get promoted because of me i will be so guilty -_-. ok, thats the story. i feel so bad sia..nv get promoted then suddenly got promoted, then my squadmates like..dunno how to say, oh well. hrm anything important happen other than that? i guess nth much bah, just normal lessons, and me falling very very behind in academics *hai* been staying back for rod practice..everytime?lol. then long ago learn finish dance liao =X. then last fri no cca we dam dua pai leh. like 10+ people practice dance we got the whole LT1 to ourselves xD. but we got permission 1 =P. then today sat use stage. quite sian la, actually today don't wanna come 1 lor, but will feel bad if i don't come, so came anyway, 30minutes early..-_- then dance dance dance, then our presents for ncos are..*ahem*. then discussed the song we want, and it ended up being a duet song. shall not expose anymore details, cos i know ncos read blogs also =X. then didn't want to stay liao..so kinda went home earlier than the rest at 12+. i guess thats all for now, can't really catchup with homework nowadays, cya! once again, I am sorry.