well, i'm back from march camp (for a day already you know xP). got home at about 2+, bathed and slept till 7+, ate dinner went back to sleep till next day 9 + xP. ok la i woke up for short whiles every now and then cos my mum kept waking me up xP. hehe but thats not the point of this post ( i slept about 17 hrs o.O)

i think this itc i really learnt alot leh. i almost forgotten about the passion, how high the standards of this unit were. of how i lowered my standards cos i didn't dare to make decisions like 'you can always find a medical excuse and quit np you know'. i really forgot about alot of things sia, with all the pressure to be a good cca leader, it has really been crushing and drained me sia. ok fine fei hua, who isn't? i promise that i will be a good cca leader no matter what. and i've always kept my promises ( i have never broken a promise before ok =P). the officers really reminded me of how high the standards of this unit was(in a good way), reminded me of the pride and passion they still have in the unit even when they are serving NS and even like they are 20+ already? thats really important sia, reminded me of my own pride and passion.

this itc also have to thank all my squadmates, i know i don't say thank you to all of you much, but i'm really very grateful for every little thing you all do okay? thanks shannon and junjie for candlelit night, it was GREAT, and i think everybody loved it as well, and i don't think i had to monitor at all xP. thanks simin for preparing ropes and recrea, though ahemithoughtiaskedyoutoprepareearlyahem, thanks jiele for preparing recrea as well. also especially thanks to wilson sia, you were great during itc. serious ok, i don't really praise ppl much leh ._. i think if i had to thank everybody one by one it would seriously take too long, but hey, all of you did your part to help one way or another, really thanks o.O first day was kinda screwed, with what whole of sec 1s going for swearing in ceremony, 25 people from sec 3s and 4s going for crowd control at netball finals, 7 more people from sec 3s to go for npap, 4 classes of ppl from sec 2s to be compulsory supporters at the netball finals. how terribly nice of the school sia, first day seriously ._., and due to some bad planning as well. but 2nd and 3rd day was alot alot better, guess my squad is like this? always pull through in the end xP i wonder how many people would read this and think about how many mistakes i made, and perhaps how bad a leader i am. damn i get jealous when i look at other ugs ._.

crap i dunno how to continue ._.

sec 1s will be a strong squad, even though they are ... during itc, cos they have strong ICs, sec 2s performance is sth that i'm proud of, even though their discipline is the main problem. Sec 3s, hmm their performance was good la, i don't have much complaints, honestly i'm not pessismistic at all bout them, but hor seriously sec 3s need to improve, but they already improved quite a bit during itc liao xP bleh what am i crapping. its hard to blog like this ._.

hmph nvm, i don't ever want to forget again, how was it like. i will do better. 4 months + more to go?