the computer really makes your brain rot -_-. must stop using it sia..but if i don't use i will be so freaking bored la -_-. why 4k cannot not like to go home so much? nowadays i abit feel like got alot of energy but dunno where to spend it on -_-, but i think all the energy receding le o.O don't feel as tired as before..but if any member of rvnp sees this i never regretted going into np ok! i think i will continue my update bout np tml or sat bah, as usual i picked around 9.30-10.30pm to blog again lols. maybe cos its around the end of the day le for me, so i choose this time to blog to end off?

today saw the cca leader's investiture sia..how times flies..(i say that phrase until i abit sick of it liao -_-). hahas rmb my cca leader's investiture back..becoming a cca leader with so many 2e de ppl xP especially ug lols, tingxiang bingle jesslyn ug de, then ruoling yujie and ningqian. then alot of ppl totally omged at me when they saw me wearing blue rings xP. no reason to feel sad bout the past right? xD I would want to blog more bout cca leader stuff la, but hor, you know public blog ._.

other than going into np stuff dunno what to blog liao bah..oh ya, i think i'm joining sl, dragonboat and still considering np. sl dunno la, seems interesting xP though i heard some controversial stuff o.O i think dragonboat approve as CCA liao, imba right dun even need to become SIA first, but not very sure yet la. damn bingle still haven't tell me all the members -_-. k this damn boring -_-

can ignore the below part, didn't really type it in the best of states -_-

you know today i had alot of thoughts

you can do everything, but not all at once. from champs xP

there's no point in continously thinking about something that you cannot solve. from dou hao xP

i wonder when will i be wise enough to know when to fight and when to give up, but then somehow for this i don't want to be wise le, cos i don't want to give up. cos i don't think i can live with this regret. but if i choose to fight what am i supposed to do anyway?

some of us dunno about cherishing, some of us talk about cherishing, but how many people really cherish the things around us? have i not been cherishing enough, have i not been trying? so why do i still feel like i'm losing alot? maybe i abit selfish sia..cos some people are just more precious to me..sad to say. I feel like quite alot of things i'm saying is wrong =/ I can only do so much..not everything.

just feel so seperate from your life now, why? as we grow up we change, some of us were pure, innocent, bubbly, tremendous amount of faith. but as we grow up we are forced to face with alot of things, namely to deal with dissapointments. None of us really wanted to change..but life sort of just forced us to change, to harden up, to adapt. But i see what other people are changing into..and i don't like it. therefore, i refuse to change. it may not be the strongest resolution cos i'm not really able to sort out my head and some things i forgot..but seriously, i don't want to change. hopefully soon, i will say i will not change.

so weird de post, can choose to ignore it -_-