studying is immensely boringgggggggggggggggggggg. but i get some sort of motivation from wanting to beat others in results xP. today slacked damn lot..zz! want to look for somebody to study with me bout like everyday prefer to stay home and study -_- don't really want to disturb them if is like that too o.O

realised that i never really stopped thinking too much, i just forget like almost immediately after i thought about things. its quite scary when you just can't seem to rmb anything, and its quite..bad for me to forget things just like that, sometimes i forget important things as well and i can't really construct an argument well. which is bad bad bad. its like when you just wake up from a dream and the memory of the dream slips away from you and you just can't rmb it le. guess is cos i keep forcing myself to not think too much, guess force is never the way to solve anything. though i don't really believe in absolute things in life xP.

hmm had a talk on subject combi on weds, quite scary huh, you are already taking your first steps in deciding your future path le. gonna be 16 this year, and 17 the next, so old liao -_-. i think its only at 17 where you will really think that i'm old ._. then at 20 you will think that '..i'm an adult?' then at 30 you will think 'crap i'm an uncle now -_-'. hehe ok stop crapping xP. humans should really learn how to treasure everything that we have right now, hope i am able to do it sia..at childhood want to faster grow up cos can do anything we like nobody will control us, then reach our age really want to go back to childhood de innocence and purity, then reach adulthood start working le would want to go back to school, cos..school is quite fun la, even though we are constantly dieing from studying its still fun with all the ppl at school xP. and at least there is an end for school, you start working le don't think there would be an end -_-. oh wait there 'touchwood' is an end. k la i'm not really optimistic bout work, just that don't want to work work work be caught up with all the earning money and then just..dots. i must live a fulfiling and meaninful life! must~

ok, good nights people, sleep early!(sleep is very important you know!). good luck for eoys ^^.