super unfocused today, don't know why. feel like things easy to go in leh but i don't feel like i own the knowledge o.O brain is tired even though i have just been rotting today, sickening. feel like its was wrong to pressure myself, but i seriously have no motivation and it takes a huge amount of willpower to even convince myself to sit down and study seriously. thats why i need somebody to study with me, studying yesterday was quite productive la. and my brain won't rot and fly away. and i don't like to motivate myself, seems like the moment i give myself stress i do badly -__-. ah sucks. actually is i can't give myself any motivation de, so pressuring myself to do sth cos of that is not really..whatever my mind is getting incoherent and sorry for this post and byebye jiayou ppl hope i am normal tommorrow.