Been quite long since i last posted here o.o hmmm..well i got offered the MOE teaching award which i'm quite happy about? I should be really thankful for it but i didn't get the MOE teaching scholarship which is pretty much what i wanted ._.but i guess its more or less the same la. but it also means that i didn't really do well for my interview, which was quite dissapointing for me. if its confusing MOE TA is like one tier lower than the MOE TS? but ok la i'm still quite happy that i got it, doesn't really matter to me which one i got now that i think about it ._.

I also applied for the University Scholars Programme (which is not for scholars because thats what everybody thinks when i tell them i'm applying for it -_- its just a programme with the word 'scholars' in its name, scholar as in those kind of academic scholar not the receive money that kind of scholar lol). Then i got rejected lor -_-. after more than 3 months of waiting argh! but i'm still interested in doing some stuff though, maybe the UTRP or CTPCLP (abbreviation is so long xP). need to find out more bout UTRP though need to stay hostel so maybe i won't apply for it in the end o.o unless my scholarship covers hostel fees which somehow i don't think so la ._. So most probably CTPCLP which i hope i can get in. Actually thinking about it maybe CTPCLP is a better place for me to go than USP. Kinda amazing that i never saw CTPCLP when i was applying for USP early this year. Then when i got rejected by USP this thing thats i feel that is more suitable for me popped up? like..i'm being guided and its ok even if i fail sometimes lol. I think the most important thing is to try your best in whatever situation. So that you won't regret. Cannot stand an idle life, where you just don't put in effort and let life past. But honestly nowadays i'm quite tired. I find it hard to be sincere in the things i do anymore sigh.

Recently went back for rod and met with squadmates for a short while (it feels short to me cos i think i chatted with all the other rvnp people more than my squadmates -_- met all of them for a few hours only lol). Hope we can have a proper squad outing soon! doesn't feel like a proper outing lor -_-. rvnp is really magical. the bonds that it forged in all the squads and how all of us remains part of the family even after we rod lol. I wonder if the current sec 1s (or just became sec 2s) know how big the family is during rod lol. I can imagine telling them like when their ncos were sec 1s my batch was their ncos. and when my batch were sec 1s raymond and eric were our ncos. and i honestly have no idea how many batches mam hui qing is before us =X. and all of us were back for rod lol. from peihao's batch to jing xian's batch to my batch to qin hui's batch (there's one missing batch of xiaoxi's batch at rod o.o ) to eric's batch all at rod lol. and if any of the bubbletea squad sees this and i think all of you turned out magnificently ^^

got to book in continue another time! T_T