Night Fall

Learning military driving has been stressing me out -_- somehow i can't really describe this feeling. Like the instructors are purposely making life tough for us and being very fierce. Actually i think the thing i really hate is the sense that there is no talking logic or discussion. It creates a very bad learning environment. Like whatever they tell you you just accept ok ok ok don't bother to defend yourself or else get it worse only -_-. I would really appreciate a proper driving school where things get taught properly and are explained well. And there's no difference between what each instructor teach. And no unreasonable wasting of time and that they actually try to build up the confidence of the people driving, isn't that really important? I don't see the point of giving us a dressing down everytime we make mistakes, just guide us along the way and let us practice until we do well isn't that ok -_-. Like sometimes they make me think that they think that we are making mistakes on purpose -_-.

And that guy in charge like have a sadistic streak or maybe a misplaced sense of righteousness. Like always like to hold people back for nothing sia. Always say what 'don't hope to go back at 5 or else i make sure all of you will stay until 7'. Thats what he always say. Wah then the face must smiling sia cannot show not happy or else kao pei until like don't know what like that. And the thing is its just very uneven lor the distribution of power -_- like if the training program is until 7, I will just lament will not make the course longer so can end at 5 each day. But in reality is until 5 and he keeps harping that he can make us stay until 7. And like never get released at 5 before always 5 already sit there wait for ages then he come talk more stuff then zzz. Quite sian right if everyday you need to face this kind of thing. Can't express your opinion back one. Though sometimes he says useful stuff but really I don't get why can't we expect to go back at 5 when the training program ends at 5. Like go out of your way to waste our time and make life worse for us -_-.

Oh i also hope that they would reinforce what we're doing well by telling us we're doing that well and point out what bad habits we have. And if for parking we had live demonstration instead of a vague diagram on paper it would help alot -_-. And more grounds to practice on, parking is really all about practice actually. And I think most of us would get it first time round if they stress us and out sit in the car and guide us it would be perfect. But i think all these comments would go to waste because saying anything other than agreeing with them would result in backlash -_-.

Sorry for complaining so much but really my mood while going to school of transport each day is really zzzzzzzzzz.

Anyway one month just give them , just 2 weeks more till i can get out ._. I really hope i can pass my test first time round and don't need retest pray pray prayyyyyy.

Anyway for my last birthday post it was actually quite a happy one, i didn't really do anything but was still happy to receive all the well wishes ^^. I was thinking of removing my birthday from facebook but well..I think there's no harm in letting people give you well wishes and giving people well wishes even if we don't remember lol. Need to write 2 essays for ctpclp now hope i can get it out fast no time and procrastinate quite alot already ._. ok update soon~